11.29.2006

crush?

I had a childhood crush once, imean alot actually, but this one, i couldn't forget til now. I was std6 and she was std4 back then. And things happened after i confessed to her that i like her by a note and she rejected me. Well, for most, i already half forgotten about her until her younger sister found me and we talked and she told me ALOT of things.

and until i sms-ed her sister, S, and it was quite fun to know her again. We chatted and talked.
And things happened [ we didnt couple ]. well, before all, her sis, SH told me that S could never be happier than b4 whenever i sms her and chat with her, so i guess S like me bt i wasnt so sure.
Now, we had a bit of understanding and we r ok back, her sis, SH told me that actually S have never will and told me if she ever like me. So, i was like, fine but now it just make me feel sucks whenever i think about her.

I don't want to feel like this anymore, it sucks u know. S.U.C.K.S !

So i smsed S and told her that we shouldnt meet and all, keep it just like this, and eventually,
this will be better cause i dont have to hurt myself and she doesnt have to like me right?.

and I hope S find her true love soon.

if you read this, S,
Im not the guy for you, S.

Take Care.

i've hurt myself by hurting you

11.25.2006

my sister.

Well, on friday, she screamed at her room. I thought she broke up or something[lol], oh well, she doesnt have a boyfriend so i thought something else, when she came out and told me, " Nan, im so shocked, Nat[the besfren since form 3/4] invited me to go to UK with her this 15th, and the boyfriend of Nat eventually is paying for the tix". i said, " im happy for you, hehe".

The moral story is..
Thats what besfren do, be together in sad or happy moment,hehe well, my sis n her besfren alwiz travel together no offence but now UK?, heck cool. I cant wait to give her my wish list from UK!
hehe.

Done.

SPM
was fine and great! hehe i hope i'll achieve as many a's i can!

Im kinda bored and sober well, no! im happy okay.
Kinda over Az & Sha, so i guess im FREE now.
I wanna watch the movie, 'CINTA' cant wait babe, 30th nov yahooo!

Til then,
Af

11.17.2006

will you be around?



and it feels like I'd been dyin here
underneth these sheets,
its a cold cold world when who you are
is always half asleep,
you have woken up the lover now
the other wants to leave,
so if I beleave
then tell me please

when the rain comes tumblin
tumblin down
will ya be around will ya be around
and when the pain starts comin
comin out will ya be around will ya be around
and when I cant find comfort in being found
and I'm on the ground and I'm on the ground
will ya be around will ya be around will ya be around

will ya be around

oh, the clouds may cover up the day but on a stary night,
will you be here breathing in my melon calie of a hide,
you have proved that there is more to everything I have In life,
ooh and I pray your right
ooh and I pray your right,

when the rain comes tumblin
tumblin down
will ya be around will ya be around
and when the pain starts comin
comin out will ya be around will ya be around
and when I cant find comfort in being found
and I'm on the ground and I'm on the ground
will ya be around will ya be around will ya be around

will you be
will you be around

when the rain comes tumblin
tumblin down
will ya be around will ya be around
and when the pain starts comin
comin out will ya be around will ya be around
and when I cant find comfort in being found
and I'm on the ground and I'm on the ground
will ya be around will ya be around will ya be around

will ya be around
will ya be around
will ya be around
when the rain comes tumblin down
rain starts coming down
will you be
will you be around


yes, will you be around even when im gone to "somewhere"?

11.13.2006

Above you!

Been busy for the whole week! :) with graduation and things happening, i cant be ok rrite now, spm is just around the corner, 15th nov start aredi. darn you gov.! haha! well, i hope i will do my best and i will score the perfect score with flying colours. Well, things has been shit and great. My mind is soo jammed! Been studying like hell, and i hate people who said i didnt study at all. hmm.
Tomoro i have study groups and tuition at 4pm :) lucky, i think i want all the tuition tomoro and tuesday start to rest!

god! hehe. I think after spm i'll turn crazy! hehee.
okay, see you guys soon!

just to feel better with you by my side!

11.06.2006

halo!



I never promised you a ray of light
I never promised there’d be sunshine everyday
I'll give you everything I have
The good the bad...

Why do you put me on a pedestal?
I’m so up high that I can’t see the ground below
So help me down, you've got it wrong
I don’t belong there

One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn’t say so
You wouldn’t say so if you were me

And I… I just wanna love you
Oh, oh I… I just wanna love you

I always said that I would make mistakes
I’m only human and that’s my saving grace
I fall as hard as I try
So don’t be blinded
See me as I really am
I have flaws and sometimes I even sin
So pull me from that pedestal
I don’t belong there

One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
but standing from here
you wouldn’t say so
you wouldn’t say so if you were me

And I…I just wanna love you
OOhh I…I just wanna love…you

Like to think that you know me
But in your eyes
I am something above you
Its only in your mind
Only in your mind

I wear
I wear
I wear
I wear a halo

One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
but standing from here
you wouldn’t say so
you wouldn’t say so if you were me
I just wanna love you
I just wanna love you
(I just wanna love you)
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo