6.30.2008

Loving it?

Pictures from urbanscapes :D

can be seen through my FaceBook, Myspace & Friendster. Thanks to My bestie's, Jiar, Aqi, Mint and whoever else took the pics with Aqi's camera. :D

LOVIN' IT XD

xoxo

Tekanan Jiwa Bertukar Benci!!

I just wanna say that, i hate someone for now, really its a HATE. Go listen to HATE (I DONT REALLY LIKE YOU) by Plain White T's.

My mood = HATRED.. Benci okay. Sumpah aku benci kau.

I had a great conversation with Dot yesterday nite, kan dot? :D
I ordered something from Kiki, i love her design, god! :D
I miss my uitm friends so bad, urghhh XD
I wanna hang out with Jiar and Kiki, Aqi N Mint more XD
I wanna slap that bloody ass cause making me pissed off, i always be patients before this! :[
So, tell me.


xoxo

6.29.2008

Best Songs...

When you are down, listen to...
- Bad Day by Daniel Powter
- Life is a beautiful by Jason Mraz
- Bisakah by Dato' Siti Nurhaliza

When you are happy, listen to...
- Dancing in the moonlight by TopLoader
- I Wanna have your babies by Natasha Beddingfield
- Shake it by Metro Station
- Dance Dance by Fall Out Boys
- Extraordinary by Mandy Moore
- Just Dance by Lady GaGa

When you just broke up, listen to...
- Sepi by Yuni Sahara
- Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis
- Better in time by Leona Lewis
- Hanya by Melly Goeslow
- Biarlah Rahsia by Dato' Siti Nurhaliza
- If You hearts not in it - Westlife
- Hanya Kau Yang mampu - Aizat
- Matahariku - Agnes Monica
- Tanpa by 6ixth Sense

When you are in the cloud 9, listen to...
- Im Yours by Jason Mraz
- Geek in the pink by Jason Mraz
- No one by Alicia Keys
- Take It Slow by Estrella
- Like A Star - Corrine Bailey Rae
- Tentang Seseorang - Bunga (Ada Band)
- Carnival by The Cardigans

When you are in love with your best friend. listen to...
- Lucky by Jason Mraz & Colbie Cailat
- Apa Artinya Cinta by Melly Goeslow & Ari Lasso
- The Scientist by Coldplay
- Catch You by Sophie Ellis Baxter
- I Want You by Rachael Yamagata
- Say it again by Natasha Beddingfield
- 1000 Tahun by Butterfingers

When you just realize that you should do something about... listen to...
- Realize by Colbie Cailat
- The Reason by Celine Dion
- Have you ever been in love by Celine Dion
- Cuba untuk mengerti by Dato' Siti Nurhaliza
- Jangan Bilang tidak by BBB
- Bukannya Satelit by Elyana

When you willing to wait for/didnt get/be with someone you really love, listen to
- Aku Lebih tahu by Mila
- Bila nak saksi by Spider
- Sayang sayang by Aliff Aziz
- Soulmate by Natasha Beddingfield
- Hero by Enrique Iglesias
- Heartbreaker by Will.I.Am
- Tak mau sendiri by BBB
- If I Aint Got You by Alicia Keys
- Mengenangmu by Kerispatih
- Blind by Lifehouse
- Cant wait to see you again by Miley Cyrus
- Hanya Sandiwara by Riz
- Kalis Rindu by Elyana
- Do You by Ne Yo
- We Belong Together by Mariah Carey

When you are going to say goodbye... listen to,
- Izinkan by Kaer
- Sweetest Goodbye by Maroon 5
- The Long Goobye by Ronan Keating
- Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word by BLUE & Elton John
- All good thing (come to an end) by Nelly Furtado
- Goodbye to You by Michelle Branch
- The day you went away by M2M
- Syukur KuSedar by Elyana
- Ayat-ayat cinta by Rossa
- Aku Bukan Untukmu by Rossa
- Goodbye by Spice Girls


So people, take note and listen to these songs i have promote you!

xoxo

6.26.2008

How do i look?

Thanks to Jiar, introduced me to Chictopia.com it makes me feel that i should take my full shot photo everyday. :) hehe. And do you think i look like fedi nuril, an indonesian actor? He acted in Ayat-Ayat Cinta. Comment them!


Pergilah sayang...

Sejenak aku berfikir. Kenapa diri masih tidak berpunya? Kenapa aku masih menyendiri tidak seperti teman-teman aku yang lain sudah dimiliki. Apakah aku tidak layan untuk bercinta, memiliki sebuah kasih sayang dari seorang perempuan? Usah ditanya mengapa aku sering dikecewakan dan bernasib malang dalam percintaan. Aku melihat tawa riang rakan-rakanku, mereka cukup gembira tatkala bersama yang tercinta. Sudah lama aku tidak keriangan seperti mereka selepas dikecewakan oleh beberapa perempuan yang aku sayangi namun semua itu menjadi hancur apabila mereka meninggalkan aku. Mengingatkan kata teman baikku, “I tak faham kenapa you masih single, you ada segalanya, you ada muka yang hensem, badan yang menarik, stail yang bergaya, you sangat hot!” jadi aku masih tertanya-tanya jika benar kata teman itu, mengapakah aku masih tidak berteman. Lebih menusuk dihati ini apabila terngiang-ngiang di otak lagu sepi nyanyian merdu Yuni Sahara. Memang tepat juga boleh aku katakan, aku sekarang sungguh sepi. Sepi tanpa ditemani cinta. Lidah kelu untuk berkata, berat beban dipikul, jiwa tidak tenang, hati sakit dilukai.


Dia, Aisha. Perempuan yang pernah aku kenali sewaktu belajar. Aku mengenalinya dengan rapat sehingga ramai memikirkan aku dan Aisha sedang bercinta padahal aku hanyalah kawannya sahaja. Ada juga membawa cerita busuk tentang aku dan Aisha. Aisha, gadis yang pernah menawan hatiku, dari bibit persahabatan hinggalah kami cuba bermesra namun dia telah berpunya tapi aku tidakpun jauh hati ketika itu. Aku menerima hakikat bahawa kami hanya berkawan dan tidak lebih dari itu. Sejak dia berpisah dengan teman lelakinya, Aisha kembali ke pangkuanku, semakin rapat sehingga timbul perasaan sayang dan hampir aku jatuh cinta namun secara tiba-tiba katanya, dia kembali kepada teman lelakinya.. hati aku begitu luluh, perih, sedih, kecewa, sakit dan geram. Mengapa bila aku sudah mula menyayangi dia dan saat itu juga dia memberitahu aku bahawa dia sudah kembali bersama teman lamanya itu. Tidak langsung dia ketahui apa perasaan aku. Tahu dia hanyalah bermain kata rindu, mesra denganku tapi tidak dia tahu langsung apa yang aku pikul dihati. Kerana Aisha, aku menyendiri kembali.

Aku terpaksa menerima hakikat kehidupan. Sepi terjadi lagi. Aku sendirian. Ingin aku menangis sahaja tapi aku kuatkan langkah dan semangatku untuk menjalani hari demi hari. Aku tidak dapat meneruskan kerja-kerjaku. “Asal muka monyot, mesti ada sesuatu,” kata seorang yang aku kenali, semua orang boleh baca fikiran aku ke? Selama ini, aku hanya menanti dan ternanti bila cintaku akan muncul. Entah bila, dia, yang bernama cinta akan muncul untuk diriku… haruskah aku teruskan perjalanan aku tanpa mengenal erti cinta lagi? Haruskah aku berlalu pergi dan meninggalkan semua yang aku pernah kenali? Atau haruskah aku buang semua memori lama dan hanya ingatkan teman-teman dan keluargaku? Aku tak mampu menghadapi ini seorang diri. Aku harus akui bahawa aku insan yang lemah dalam cinta. Aku gagal meraih cinta. Gagal untuk mendapatkan hati perempuan. Adakah semua ini silapku? Atau hanya permainan mata dan hati?

Sejarah cinta dan hidup aku penuh duri dan ranjau… aku mahu lari dari semua yang dibenak fikiran. Ingin sahaja aku lupakan kisah silam, aku kecewa kerana cinta aku menyendiri. Kerana kamu, aku tidak percaya lagi kata-kata cinta, keranamu perempuan, aku takut untuk bercinta, kerana dirimu juga, aku kenali erti kesabaran. Aku menjadi lebih kuat dan kesabaran itu menjadikan diriku terus berdiri teguh, tidak rapuh lagi. Aku syukuri kata teman baikku, memberi kata semangat untuk aku terus jalani hidup ini, “be more successful, more accomplished, be more stylo, more friendly, more rich, more smart, more charismatic then they will regret, for being so stupid. And when they stupidly try and flirt with u again, u are smart enough to turn around and walk away because u know that they are not worth your time. Never. You will find someone who's worth your time. it might be tomorrow, it might be next week, it might be next month. it might be a year, might be 3 years, but u know what? I know that when you find someone that you are meant to be with, u are going to be so happy.”

Aku yakin, dan aku akan terus mencapai apa yang aku inginkan dalam hidup. Kata-kata teman itu menjadikan aku lebih pantas untuk tidak mencari cinta lagi. Aku tidak akan menanti dan mencari, dan aku hanya akan diam. Tidak lagi mahu aku kenali apa kata cinta itu. Biarkan aku menjadi sepi seperti malam-malam yang menemaniku. Sepi itu akan menghembuskan angin takdir aku dan aku pasti dapat melupakan cinta dahulu dan kembali ke jalan aku. Biarlah kata orang dan terus mereka berkata tentang aku gagal. Itu hanya akan menguatkan aku untuk mengorak langkah. Aku akan buktikan pada dunia yang aku mencapai cinta sebenar aku. Yang sebenarnya, yang terjadi, yang akan berlaku… hanya yang Maha Esa tahu.

Dan aku mahu katakan disini pada diri kamu, dan mereka yang pernah mengecewakan aku, pergilah sayang, aku tidak perlukan kamu untuk menemaniku. Hanya yang Maha Esa sahaja kini menemaniku. Dan siapa tahu, mungkin sampai mati aku sepi tapi biarlah, tidak aku peduli lagi, ini hanyalah mainan dunia. Pergilah, pergilah kamu.

* take note: nama aisha telah diubah dari nama asal.

xoxo

6.25.2008

Sepi

I watched Sepi last night, it was great! I love the movie. i rank them 5/5 star.. Its a good plot of story and nice acting by Afdlin Shauki, Vanidah Imran, Baiura Kahar, Tony Eusoff, Syed Hussein. I also love their ost, Sepi - Yuni Sahara and Aku Bukan Untukmu (cover song) - Zaf & Lah VE. I like the poem in the movie... sepi.

bisikku pada bulan,
kembalikan kekasihku, temanku, syurgaku,

tanpa dia malam menemaniku,
sepi memelukku..

bulan jangan biar siang biar alam ini kelam,
biar ia sepi sepertiku..

and here is the latest ost of sepi - SEPI by Yuni Sahara

Sepi hati terjadi lagi
Mungkin sampai mati
Aku sepi

Biar senyum hadir dihariku
Namun ini hanya ada dibibir
Dibibir saja

Aku ini
Yang bisa mengerti
Walaupun yang lain
Mau mengerti
Namun berat beban dihidupku

Biarkan saja.. biar saja
Hanya ku yang tahu

Sejarah cinta dan hidupku
Penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
Butuh kesabaran yang penuh
Untuk tetap ku berdiri

Ada saatnya ku bicara
Bila hatiku telah pulang
Sepanjang kubisa atasi semua
Aku tetap diam..

xoxo

Teman atau Kawan? Musuh?

Al kisahnya, ini cerita benar dan kebenaran jelas akan terpancar. Malas aku nak panjang-panjangkan cite, baca dan fahamlah sendiri, ini tentang teman atau aku gelarkan mereka sahabat dan aku tau mereka tahu apa yang berlaku dan sebaliknya, mereka juga ada kehidupan masing-masing. Jadi janganlah menyalahkan orang lain tak tentu pasal, ni bukan sebab aku nak back up mana-mana pihak.. sendiri mahu ingatlah! aku guna initial korang, fahamkan sendiri ye!

Teman K
- dia seorang yang boleh ceritakan kisah peribadi tanpa segan silu dan memahami aku. walaupun aku x rapat ngan dia time sekolah dan sekarang kami menjadi lebih rapat walaupun masing-masing duk jauh, dia segamat, aku sarawak. Tapi kami tahu kami sayang each other walaupun sendiri busy and all. Tak perlu nak tarik muka or emosi. Faham situasi rakan. senang. :D

Teman J
- dia seorang yang senang aku garapkan rahsia. best berfashion dengan dia. dia tahu aku dan boleh memberitahu aku kalau aku gemok or kurus sangat, jadi aku tak risau. dia ada bf dan aku paham keadaan dia. jika dia bz, aku tak kacau, kita faham situasi orang. Jgn jadi bodoh kan? Aku honestly busy and dia pun busy tapi we update thru sms or msn or blog! so tak jadi hal.

Teman N
- dia teman aku beradu masalah jiwa, pembakar semangat untuk aku lebih berusaha dan jangan toleh belakang jika gagal, maju ke hadapan. seorang yang talented. dia tahu kehendak dan apa dia nak dalam hidup. masih dia kena fikir dan kenali dunia ini dengan betul. aku sokong dia dari belakang, seorang yang pendirian kukuh dan teguh.

Teman Y
- dia teman aku bergossip dan teman aku untuk berkata-kata hotness. dia sering memuja aku sebagai hot tapi aku tidak merelakannya. oops, jangan marah ye Y. dia di segamat, aku di sarawak tapi kami sentiasa memahami antara satu sama lain, aku suka gaya dia yang selamba dan tak hiraukan kata orang, jangan peduli dan move on, kan kan?

Teman M
- dia yang aku kenal waktu sekolah, memang ada duka dan suka terjadi antara kami. dan aku mengambilnya sebagai memori dalam minda. dia masih menuntut. dan gembira aku kalau dengar dia bahagia. tapi kadang kala kita tak boleh paksa orang untuk sentiasa bersama kita, kita kena faham situasi orang tu. kita perlu tahu orang tu ada kehidupan sendiri dan aku x suka bila kau mula start nak emosi and stuff, which is not good. sebab perkara remeh kau jadikan ia besar dan ia x sepatutnya berlaku. Ia boleh dielakkan dengan cara atau teknik memahami. Kau kena tahu bahwa kiteorg sentiasa sayang ko and rindu ko tapi tak perlu lah nak emosi ni. tak best, change ur attitude can? hope u d best!

Teman J (laki)
- dia baru aku kenali dengan rapat last year. Kami menjadi close sejak dia berpunya dengan teman aku tu. so i guess, we're brothers lah kan. He's a brave and funny guy. I like his selambaness. which is cool. make him look so fine.

Saudara G
- dia kazen yang rapat jugak, cool and masalah wanita sering ganggunya tapi berjaya diatasi, aku menasihatinya agar lebih berhati-hati dalam cinta dan semoga dia berjaya. dia seorang yang helpful and boleh tolong. Thanks!

Saudara J
- dia kazen aku. aku tak faham kenapa dia nak emo ngan aku waktu sekarang. aku takda niat nak naikkan nama kau kat blog aku.. itu hanyalah sekadar nick bodo-bodo yang diberi oleh aku n teman Y, dan semua tahu pada sesi lepak di rasta dahulu dan mereka pun anggap benda tu bodo, jangan cepat perasan and nanti makan diri. aku pun tatau cite sebenar si erik dalam gg tu. Tak tgk habis jadi jgn ah nak perasan. Kalau kau tau siapa kau, jangan takot, be urself, dont try to put d blame on others, aku tak kecoh pun pape psl ko, so jgn nak emosi ngan aku. n no more drama from you pls! next..

Teman A
- dia teman yang aku sering berkongsi masalah tentang cinta, persahabatan and semua. dia pun busy and dia akan terbang bulan 8 ni tapi kami masih contact walaupun jarang bertemu, tak emosi pun. dia seorang yang aku sayang sampai bila-bila.


Moral of the day: Jangan cepat perasan, jangan cepat emosi dan jangan nak salahkan orang lain. Cuba fahami situasi orang lain. Kamu tak mengertikah apa erti persahabatan. Kalau itu pun tak boleh make understanding, macam mane nak teruskan persahabatan untuk 10 tahun akan datang. Kalau sesiapa yang terasa tu baca, go on read tapi kalau rasa meluat. Tolong jangan baca. Aku tak paksa. Hak korang, korang nak wat pe ke, internet korang gak kan. Tapi please lah, jangan buat tindakan melulu tak pikir panjang akal. Kalau korang rasa life korang tu tak best, ceriakanlah ia dengan menda-menda faedah. Kalau tanak pun, gi melancap so tak emosi tentu pasal. Kan?

Kalau orang terasa. Maafkan aku, Aku nak beri kesedaran kat korang, Fahamilah situasi rakan-rakan maka itu akan menambahkan kemanisan dalam persahabatan. Itulah ramuan asli persahabatan. Jgn nak ingat kawan tak sayang korang, aku sayang korang tapi ye lah, sibuk, kesibukan itu menjadi penghalang untuk aku bertemu korang tapi aku mahu korang tahu bahawa, sayang dan trust aku tu kat korang akan terus terpancar melalui blog, sms dan call walaupun tak jumpa.

So, get it?

maaf kalau terkasar bahasa. Semoga ceria hari anda!

xoxo

6.24.2008

Timetable

Before i forgot, this is my next semester timetable, just arrange it but i didnt put my repeat subject eco cause its clash with my another class so i have to see my KP to drop bus. math and clear the problem. :)

busy schedule, u think?

Morning Galore

Good Morning Kuala Lumpur! Its been a crazy day, i havent sleep yet for the rest of the night. I did house chores this morning, and it was alright.. surprisingly i did my jogging this morning, auhh first time since i get back to KL.. yeah imean jog in the morn? wth. hehe I think im addicted to Jason Mraz's featuring Colbie Cailat - Lucky and Leona Lewis's Better In Time song.. it is a great song to cheer your day as words fail, music speaks. So, get your copy of the songs all right? I've event to attend this morning like 9am and i havent gerak to the KJ's LRT cause my mum is still sleeping. She said she will send me there cause its on her way to her dentist at Kelana Jaya, near Fahmi's college.

I don't know what should write more, cause im blank for now, let's roll to the lyrics..

Do you hear me?
I'm talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my and baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I wait for you, I promise you I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh

Jason Mraz Feat. Colbie Cailat - Lucky

xoxo

6.22.2008

Back To Basic

Yes, that's what im gonna talk today, its about Back To Basic. Back to where you come from, im glad that im still in the clique of mine, my own. Ive one of my best days in life. I hang out with my two beautiful best friends, Jiar & Kiki. First, i went to one utama and met up Jiar, while waiting Kiki to come, we killed our time by having a light food eating at the mamak corner, i had fun with Jiar, we talked about Politics, Love and so on. And we went to the park, took lots of photo there. Kiki arrived shortly after that, at the park, we gossip from A-Z about all the people around us, we walked around at one utama sambil bergossip and had our dinner at Jetty's. We talked non-stop. Like there's no tomorrow. We talked about stuff that happened in our daily motion life, about Love, Marriage, Celebrity and some people. :)

I guess its a good catch ups moment for us, we were a bit pissed off by this slutty lady that worked at celebrity fitness, only Jiar n Kiki knows what actually happened. Btw, after dat, we walked around OU again before head our body to The Curve. We actually walked to there. We sempat camwhoring okay. And finally reached, we start camwhoring again and again till Jiji and his sister, Niesa tag along with us followed by Niesa's sister, IDK whats her name. We went to 7E to buy drinks and sat infront of maybank and talked and camwhore. Finally, Kiki went home, her parents picked her up and Ee picked up Niesa and her sis to Uptown. Me, Jiar and Jiji went to Teh Tarik's Place to chill out and tak lama after dat, Niesa called asked us to go back to my place as she is there already, THAT IS SO FAST OF U. okay. And i blah with jiji lah.

I havent been sleeping yet. We shared photos thru Msn and YM. Lovin' the photos, will update them shortly.

i think i need a sleep now.


bff


me n kiki

jiar n me


trying to be cool?


ugly faces by the three munchies.

xoxo

6.19.2008

A Story About A Friend

My friends was so good till they wrote about my birthday on their blog, i didnt have much time the other day to post what they already post for me. Anyway, just see it.

jiar
dot
& eena


thanks friends, you are the bombastic!

oh wait, morning btw.

xoxo

Happy Birthday Mak!

It was June 18th my beloved mother birthday! So there we go with the shout out,

I LOVE YOU, MAK! Let's go shopping together!

me and my super coolest mum ever!

Love ya till the end of time.

xoxo

Futsal and Indonesia

Hi, i went to play futsal just now, not exactly a futsal match, it was just a trial out i guess. It was pretty fine. I was playing like a stupid one, haha, well of course, its just a trial for the women team as they are having the tournament this sunday at sports planet. I and the other three guys were so supportive of them by helping them to play the ball. Then after 30 mins, went out as the womens/girls having their match. My sister was in too. She played. Actually, it was a selection for the Media team to play this sunday, my sister was so suprised that she got selected to be in the team as she got selected to be the goal keeper... after that straight went home, i rushed ate two packet of nasi lemak sri garden cause i was starving and craving for nasi lemak. OMG. i broke my rules of dieting. hahahahha, bodoh gile okay. its like wtf?

On the other hand, my sister talked about her trip to Indonesia, Bandung and Jakarta while me, my sis in law;kak farah, my bro;abg ash, my sis bf;azif were finishing their food and i was interrupting them. Funny, my sister talked about how my mum friends act like and how all the datin's and mak cik's shopping, my mum friend, she shopped like crazy, she spent about RM15,000 only on shopping. CRAZY. right? but then, she is so fucking rich, who cares. That's what i like about rich people. HAHAHA. My sister lost her passport went she was on the way back to KL, at the airport so they(she n my mum) had to go to Jakarta as the Malaysian Embassy is there. She talked about how the Indonesian people are and most of them loves to cheat and like doing business and they are like super clever. Oh, why didn't their government employ these people.

Anyway, i dont know why, im like kinda happy. Its weird, this feeling. err.. So weird. WHY? i dont know. People, help me to solve this matter, ahaks. I was wandering if any of you give to people my ym or my hp num, its been crazy you know when people keep kacau-ing you with sms and call. Even, in ym, sick i know the people are. Im working tomorrow, early i guess, 10.00am ive to be at KL convention centre as i have this sort of event to attend, a talk i think. erm, yeah. im like becoming the editor of fashion, health & beauty, perhaps. haha

I watched Formidable Rivals yesterday night, it was kinda surprised with the plot of the story, it getting more crazier. I like Kang Su Ho ( Lee Jin Wyuk) new hair style, it makes me wanna have the hair style too. I'm kinda copying the korean style more than the european style i guess cause Asian Rocks!

Anyway, i got to go, i have to be in bed early cause gotta wake up early tomorrow. Its getting late. im gonna have my shower and then buzz to sleep. Cya around babes and dudes.

xoxo

6.17.2008

Yonica Babyyeah

Let's take a look at ma' pitcha!


click
here to the picture site.

To WHOM it MAY concern...

"What Happened to All the Nice Guys?"


Date: 2007-11-19, 3:52AM PST


I see this question posted with some regularity in the personals section, so I thought I'd take a minute to explain things to the ladies out there that haven't figured it out.

What happened to all the nice guys?

The answer is simple: you did.

See, if you think back, really hard, you might vaguely remember a Platonic guy pal who always seemed to want to spend time with you. He'd tag along with you when you went shopping, stop by your place for a movie when you were lonely but didn't feel like going out, or even sit there and hold you while you sobbed and told him about how horribly the (other) guy that you were fucking treated you.

At the time, you probably joked with your girlfriends about how he was a little puppy dog, always following you around, trying to do things to get you to pay attention to him. They probably teased you because they thought he had a crush on you. Given that his behavior was, admittedly, a little pathetic, you vehemently denied having any romantic feelings for him, and buttressed your position by claiming that you were "just friends." Besides, he totally wasn't your type. I mean, he was a little too short, or too bald, or too fat, or too poor, or didn't know how to dress himself, or basically be or do any of the things that your tall, good-looking, fit, rich, stylish boyfriend at the time pulled off with such ease.

Eventually, your Platonic buddy drifted away, as your relationship with the boyfriend got more serious and spending time with this other guy was, admittedly, a little weird, if you werent dating him. More time passed, and the boyfriend eventually cheated on you, or became boring, or you realized that the things that attracted you to him weren't the kinds of things that make for a good, long-term relationship. So, now, you're single again, and after having tried the bar scene for several months having only encountered players and douche bags, you wonder, "What happened to all the nice guys?"

Well, once again, you did.

You ignored the nice guy. You used him for emotional intimacy without reciprocating, in kind, with physical intimacy. You laughed at his consideration and resented his devotion. You valued the aloof boyfriend more than the attentive "just-a-" friend. Eventually, he took the hint and moved on with his life. He probably came to realize, one day, that women aren't really attracted to guys who hold doors open; or make dinners just because; or buy you a Christmas gift that you mentioned, in passing, that you really wanted five months ago; or listen when you're upset; or hold you when you cry. He came to realize that, if he wanted a woman like you, he'd have to act more like the boyfriend that you had. He probably cleaned up his look, started making some money, and generally acted like more of an asshole than he ever wanted to be.

Fact is, now, he's probably getting laid, and in a way, your ultimate rejection of him is to thank for that. And I'm sorry that it took the complete absence of "nice guys" in your life for you to realize that you missed them and wanted them. Most women will only have a handful of nice guys stumble into their lives, if that.

So, if you're looking for a nice guy, here's what you do:

1.) Build a time machine.
2.) Go back a few years and pull your head out of your ass.
3.) Take a look at what's right in front of you and grab ahold of it.

I suppose the other possibility is that you STILL don't really want a nice guy, but you feel the social pressure to at least appear to have matured beyond your infantile taste in men. In which case, you might be in luck, because the nice guy you claim to want has, in reality, shed his nice guy mantle and is out there looking to unleash his cynicism and resentment onto someone just like you.

If you were five years younger.

So, please: either stop misrepresenting what you want, or own up to the fact that you've fucked yourself over. You're getting older, after all. It's time to excise the bullshit and deal with reality. You didn't want a nice guy then, and he certainly doesn't fucking want you, now.

Sincerely,

A Recovering Nice Guy

taken from, http://www.craigslist.org/about/best/lax/483318927.html

I'll be crazy..

i have tons of work to be done this week before july. before i get back to my university. OHMYGWD. im tak nak go to uni. It's so bored and tiring life. Anyway i plan to invite everyone, imean my ex-schoolmates to get together this saturday before any of us wont be able to see each other anymore. :)

C'mon, lend your hand will you?

I gotta go, tons of work here at the office, anything, contact me through msn/ym or call me!

mwah!


xoxo

6.15.2008

Time

Im so bored today, woke up nearly 2.30pm and had my lunch, well, just makan the ikan goreng and ikan kering only, with no rice. im on diet, ive been inspired to be skinny and get more cool things on my list. I just ate Tiramisu cake from my birthday cake which i really wanna finish them before my mum birthday coming and we gonna have a new cake on the way. :)

I want to go out with new people, new life, new spectacle and new girlfriend.

the word i used nowadays is 'NEW' i know i sound mellow but hell yeah, i want NEW things and everything to be on my way. I just love being pampered by money. Its been so long since i went out my deary friends a.k.a horny people, but yesterday night, there were only 3 of us, Me, GG and Eena, first, eena picked me up from my house and then her mom sent us to Curve, we walked around and lined up for the movie at cineleisure, it was too long that we hates lining up so we gave up, called gg, said wanna watch it at gsc. Before gg came to pick up us, we had a drink at Teh Tarik's Place which is located at Curve.

He came and picked us up, went to OU, supposed to lined up, but there was so many people that it makes me feel so dont-want-to-watch-it-anymore. I saw my brother and his friend lining up to get a movie ticket, malas to jumpa him, so i decided that we go karaoke.. first we went to the NeWay karaoke, it was hell expensive so decided to go to the Karaoke Jamban. =D I sang 4 songs, 2 duets, 1 song for gg. After dat, we went to uptown, lepak-lepak and played teka-teki, it was funny, you wanna know what were we guessing? our form 5 class name. We have like 10 classes, 5 Science Stream, 2 Sub-Science, 3 Art Stream, It was Belian, Jati, Nyatoh, Merbau, Keledang, Keruing, Cendana, Meranti, Penaga and the last class that we couldnt figure out was Pulai, it was Meme class. Oops, not so famous class so we do forgot it. :) I won the teka teki cause i could guess it. :P We said we tak nak makan, suddenly we ordered, Sotong Tepung, Lala and Oyster.. We makan-ed.

We headed our body to the dvd's seller kedai, got two movie, My Blueberry Nights and Across The Universe. Haven't watch it. Perhaps gonna watch it tonight or tomorrow night. I've event to attend this week, it will be a busy week, plan to interview Dato' Aziz Sattar since the Independence Month is coming up. I really want that Paul Smith sling bag, like fuck!

so..

xoxo

6.14.2008

Nasi Bubur and Paul Smith

I helped my mum n her best friend, aunty ros to prepare our lunch at home, it was Nasi Bubur on the menu. I didnt bath yet when i cooked it and when im having the rice porridge. And before we started to cook and what so ever, there was a funny conversation and weird ones between me and my mum best friend. I woke up and went out from my room (which is very near to the kitchen. So, i was so blurred and saw aunty ros chit-chatting with my mum at the living room, when i came there to pass to my mum the cover for the magazine, aunty ros said, "Asal hensem sangat, tak ada girlfriend ke?", i was like... "err, mana ada" then i went to washed my face and then, went to sit to read the news paper, again, she asked, "takkan takda gf?, orang hensem, mesti ramai terkejar-kejar, afnan tak payah cari, mesti ada lah,".. i replied, "hmm, belum masa n jodoh kot, tunggulah.. tapi takda lah siapa lah nak kan. muka pun x hensem mana." She said, "jangan risaulah, ramai sure kejar afnan." hahahaha, let's laugh to that!

I need new sling bag by paul smith, new shoe by pull and bear, new belt from topman. I went to Danau Kota last night, i saw this paul smith sling bag, i thought it was worth RM50+, suddenly the man said it was RM250. I was in shocked, wtf! Cikai pun mahal ke. haha. Anyway i couldnt help myself that im now into Paul Smith and Marc Jacobs. :) Go rich friends get me one of those things. hahaha. lol, joking lah. Anyway, i wanna go to pavilion and sg. wang again, i wanna shop more skinny jeans and shirt.. bags too!! couldn't wait for money to be in my hands again..

xoxo

6.13.2008

Its YOUR bday... like 50 cent said!

It was a plain bored day, but thanks to the people who wished me last night and today(12th june) and smsing me and gave prezzie and to myself, congrats you got a new look! haha.

I went to sungei wang and bought a skinny thr and went to pavilion's forever 21 bought their men range of a sweater, green color, so go green people. and lastly went to topman, got a shirt. :)
thats all. Went for a dinner with my 2nd bro, sis in law, my younger bro and workmate. 5 of us, sucks rite but it was funny and fine tho!

Thanks to my cousin ajak-ing me lepaking at curve and hartamas and the bday prezzie. (cheeka,niesa,jojo,jiji,ameme,alieff,azrul)

the bday prezzie i received-
alarm clock - ameme
xtray+lighter(coca cola design) - niesa, cheeka and alieff
RM50 - aunty linda

thats all.

the wishes came from..
(sms)
Nazreena/Yasmin/Shazwan/Qifli/Minarni/Tati/Abg Ash/Shafiq B/Shahrizan/Nadiah uitm/Sis/Jazli/Umar/Aqilah/Niksu/Aizat uitm/Nadia uitm/Hafiz uitm/Ziemah uitm/Mum/Jasmin.

(call)
Jiar/Abg Bidin/Azrin/Muliyanati

Facebook
Oshin/Sarah Mokhtar/Nina Azlina/Hanis/Wajadi/Nadhirah/Kayda/Erin Adlina

Friendster
Haneysha/Hilmi/Amrie uitm/Nurul uitm/Hassanah uitm/Johan/Niksu/Kak Noor/Ainin/Nabeela/Shasha/Hanin uitm/Azerol uitm/Syazwan/Najla uitm/
Jujie ex uitm/Farahin uitm/Rizal ismail uitm/Layla/Fasha/Syu

Myspace
Azrul/Ika/Alyaa/Jiar/Niksu/Farah Hani/Indera/Midzi

Blog
Jiar/Nazreena/Yasmin

I guess this people really appreciated me more than you others. Thanks alot.

I think this year is the most boring and sucks bday ever. haha, not complaining, just feel so cause i dont feel excited at all and i just want someone i can be with to enjoy it with me but sadly no one. haha, its like a song from mary j.blige - be without you! haha. cool yeah? My schedule is not fix yet for next week and i'll be busy the whole week running!

i lost 7 kg last night and today, i went up to 65 kg from 61kg(yesterday). My average weight is 68kg so thats mean ive been eating a lot like hell. :)

'ku mahu mahu kamu' haha, mahu siapa? mahu gelek or inul? haha. Im just another plain bored guy and i dont think any girls would want a guy like me cause i dont like to smsing panjang2 and ckp on d fone so long and saying lovey dovey words but i'll get jiwang when the emo part came.

Anyway, shafiq b, happy belated bday on 9th june and mario on 8th june and whoever else, get a condom people! spread the word. :)

xoxo

6.11.2008

Gelek sikit

Mari kita gelek sikit itu macam inul lah. haha, i totally love the new cover for my magazine this month, july. its cool, get your copy when it is out and try to masuk the promosi Perempuan / The X Files : I Want To Believe, you may try your luck there and win some cool prizes that will be given away... The people who is in the cover this month is four gorgeous people from the reality tv programs, such as akademi fantasia, malaysian idol and one in a million...there are...
Farah Asyikin - get to know more about her.
Farah Anuar - who is she really are?
Faizal Tahir - his comment on the issue
and last but not least,
Shila - the becoming 'it' girl.

So, dont hesitate to get your copy soon when it is out okay people, anything ask me!

To think back, i do think that i now have a strong portfolio, let see
i've styled so many celebrity, the biggest is styling Dato' Siti Nurhaliza for our cover. She's very sweet and cool.

Ive met many people from different background.

so

xoxo

6.10.2008

Matahariku

I want you all to download this song, it is a wonderful song sing by a great singer, dancer and model, actress - Agnes Monica, she's just lovely. go and dload it cause it is a beautiful song to hear when you're stress. I get headache so many time this days and when i listen to this song, it totally clear my mind.. I think i need to go to see doctor, what's happening to me is worse and worse this days.. i think im going to lost memory of you all, hahahhaa, bestnya!! macam dalam filem jer. chehs. Anyway, go dload kay.

Tertutup Sudah Pintu, Pintu Hatiku
Yang Pernah Dibuka Waktu Hanya Untukmu
Kini Kau Pergi Dari Hidupku
Kuharus Relakanmu Walau Aku Tak Mau

Berjuta Warna Pelangi Di Dalam Hati
Sejenak Luluh Bergeming Menjauh Pergi
Tak Ada Lagi Cahaya Suci
Semua Nada Beranjak Aku Terdiam Sepi

Dengarlah Matahariku, Suara Tangisanku
Kubersedih Karna Panah Cinta Menusuk Jantungku
Ucapkan Matahariku Puisi Tentang Hidupku
Tentangku Yang Tak Mampu Menaklukkan Waktu

Agnes Monica - Matahariku

Ribena

When i get sick, i drink Ribena. And thats what im doing now, i get sick often nowadays. What should i do?

Is there enough time?

Well, Hope it is!

:)

xoxo

6.09.2008

the moment to remember

It's been long since i cried over a person. this time i cried bcause of the person i really love. i love him till his death. the person im talking about is my dad, my beloved one that always be in my hearts forever. i dont know why suddenly i cried just now, for him. Maybe, i missed him around me too much it make sick so bad. its been 4 days after his 8th anniversary of his death. I'll always remember that. the reason i cried is because i was giving my younger brother the love and protection he missed during his childhood days, he lost our dad when he was just 7. can you be in his place? i dont know how could he survive in this world without a dad and i know how it feels like, its really painful to see others mingle and having fun with their dad and us? left nothing. i told him that what i want for my bday is just that he get 8 a's for his PMR this year and get into good school and be a good person. I owe my life to the people around me, im touched by their kindness to me.

It's been a long journey, i have lived 19 years and more to go(if i have the chance?). i thanked my family esp my mum for her spirit and strong will to brought us to what we are now. I owe her my life and im gonna keep my promise to myself to take care of her when i finish studying and start working, i dont want her to work anymore. i want to support her. its like the saying that orang tua melayu said once, "seorang ibu mampu jaga 10 anak, tapi 10 anak susah nak jaga 1 ibu" I felt very touched by the words.. i still remember what my dad said to me the night before his death, "take care of mak, and adzam, make sure you give him everything he want and i want u to be his guidance.. i want you to be around for him.." i still count those words in mind, i never ever let it go even its been 8 years back. I still gonna remember that.

When i said i owed my life to the people around me, means im gonna take care of them, im gonna do what i promised to my dad. I dont want to let him down anymore, im sick of letting everyone around me down. I just want everyone to get the love and protection that they missed to have around with my dad. I, once think that i will never get married until i did something good to my mum n younger brother, i need to support them when i start working, i wanna give the protection and love they missed very much of it, single of it perhaps. I honestly do feel that we should do something to our loved one, is not about the person you are in love with but the people around you.

Since father's day coming this sunday, i hope, i could give the biggest present or my prayer to my dad. I've loved him for all my life. I'll never forget him and wont ever take him out of my life even once i heard people talked about my dad, i dont care, he is my dad and im gonna stand up for him no matter what happens. Even he has done bad things, i know i should stand up for him. You people should feel lucky to still your dad around you, no matter how you think he dont love you but actually he love you, you should do your bit to your dad. Make him happy atleast once in his lifetime that i never get a chance to do it. I want people out there to learn from my mistake, from my past, from my experience of what ive gone through.

Its been a wonderful and colorful journey i've been in to.. What i can share and tell is, please please do make your dad proud and happy for once in his lifetime, he wont last for you forever til his last touch of you but you have to change the situation if you have issue or any kind of misery btw both. Whatever your dad does, pray for his best, pray that his decision is the best for you. Make your life worth while having a dad by your side cause it's a wonderful and eventful trip you gonna have. You dont know when he will be gone but act now before its too late.

Anyway, what i wanna say is, you can cry all you want for you special one, but the tears you cry for your dad is priceless, its a beautiful tears you gonna have even if you think it will hurt and make more pain in your heart but let's just give it a thought. I cried for the people i loved, the people i adored, the people i will always remember although sometimes i just wish to erase the sad memory from my mind but i know it will always be in my mind.. this is wont be my last tears for him, and i will not cry anymore bcause of a girl but for my dad.. Cherish the love.

Happy Father's Day,

May you have a blast one with your dad.


xoxo

Its Happy DAY

My mum n my sis will head their body to Bandung, Indonesia tmr morning and yet my sis in law, kak farah took off from her work for 4 days to jaga the house, and i tot i was gonna have the whole house But no. :( aiyah tot nak ajak my friends to lepak. adoi. melepas lah peluang aku yeah! :)

anyway tmr going to kdu to interview chef zam. :) hehe kdu's kids here i come!!


xoxo

the ghost. haha

UPDATED WISHLIST

strike means dah dapat or dah habis stock kat kedai when i go n check.

1)Maxis Broadband
2)Xternal Hardisk (DALAM MIMPI!!!!!!)
3)New flip flop from fourskin/billabong/quiksilver. : my size is M or 9 :)
4)New shirt from topman, ahh they're having the coolest shirt i like. :Size M for Tshirt and Collar shirt M.
5)Rolling Stone's Lips shirt, most dying to get that : size M
6)A cool sweater from MC2 at the curve = rm116 after discount : size M
7)new handphone (ENTAH DAPAT KE TIDAK, MIMPI JUGAK!)
8)new Ipod since my babyblue got herself lost by my sis when we moved to the new hse (DALAM MIMPI AKUUU!)
9)new jacket from Pull & Bear <-- xsesuaii . hahhahaa 10)new slip on shoe from sg.wang (really want it!) 11)new sim card number, hotlink sarawak plan, cheaper i tell you. (later i buy it for myself) 12)must have item atleast one in my entire teenage life - skinny jeans (NAK NAK NAK, in BLACK) 13)new sling bag from Pull & Bear cost = RM150 below i guess (dah habis)
14)new ring to wear so i can show people that im married, hahaha
15)new hairdo before i get back to UiTM
16)To reformat my laptop, this laptop getting slower than ever!
17)a big night out with friends...
18)maybe, a girl for my bday? aha, sound corny! haha

what i really want is, to see all my friends in one place and to have fun with them. :)

6.07.2008

I Suck Big Time

yea, my exam result is out and i just got below than what i achieved when i was in part 1. Well, i failed two subject which i know i will failed again. :) haha. Eco and Bus. Maths. Will drop macro and bus.maths next sem and just take micro again, i passed my account anyway!

anyway congrats to my friends, eena for getting her second dean list with pointer 3.97. Good. :) after this you can menyombong with me. hahaha LOL. jk. anyway congrats to yasmin too, 3 pointer. the rest? i havent heard any of them.

i wanna choke myself and just die. can?

xoxo

6.06.2008

Rehab, No, you were meant for me!

'they tried to put me in rehab, i say No No No..' yeah.. im happy now. im happy with my friends, altho they're away and jauh jauh from me, but thinking of them make me feel happy, i just love my friends who always care abt me. :) love them tons. and you all were meant to be my friend. :)))

i had a cover shooting with our no. 1 darling, Datuk Siti, it was great and fast, talked to her, she thought im a sort of creative director or what. i said, im just a styling and fashion journalist. :)

hehe, she is so cool, thats why i adore her so much. anyway, will post lots of photo later on.

busy, tmr. going to meet bernice liu, taiwan or hong kong superstar for Voir event :) huhu..

xoxo

6.04.2008

i know...

it's the time where i should move on and not to think of her anymore. yes, i talked to someone about this and she totally agreed and i totally think she's someone that has helped me today, i read someone's blog just a little while ago, and i felt pain back in my heart, i hold no more memory of you, im letting you go out of my life, dear you. if you ever read this, please do not link me anymore or even mention my name again? will you? im just another guy want his life back in track like everyone else. my friend, the one has helped through this, niksu, she said the things to consoled my heart, thank you dear for that, i really need that. you know how much tears ive cried for her(that girl)? countless. i couldn't wait to be 19 in a week time.. so i can see the direction of my life clearly from this, i wanna be someone could inspire..

yes, i already delete everything, when i said everything means EVERYTHING! hmmmph.

I clearly gotta be myself back. be whom i used to be, and im no longer what you think. Im strong, and i already locked my heart and not going to open it to anyone at this mo. im just gonna be a single guy who will enjoy his life with his friends and family. more clubbing, more smoking and more happiness. my life is pretty mess up like nathaniel archibald. really, im not lying.

I really need someone to console me and be my partner to talk to and i dont wanna go to rehab just because all of this. haha. i know it sound so mellow, but yeah. there it goes. I need help to get my life back on track okay honey?

see ya around.

xoxo

6.01.2008

Wishlist

Hi,

i just got one of my wish list the things i really wanna get for my birthday, so i already got myself a maxis broadband, its cute, i got the leopard design edition, i named her as babyleopard. hehe.. i really have to write down the things i really want to get before i get baboo (a word use by sarawakian people as forgetful person).

Wish List!!!!

1)Maxis Broadband - got already(bought it for myself with my own money) so called self bday prezzie?
2)Xternal Hardisk
3)New flip flop from fourskin
4)New shirt from topman, ahh they're having the coolest shirt i like
5)Rolling Stone's Lips shirt, most dying to get that
6)A cool sweater from MC2 at the curve = rm116 after discount
7)new handphone
8)new Ipod since my babyblue got herself lost by my sis when we moved to the new hse
9)new jacket from Pull & Bear
10)new slip on shoe from sg.wang
11)new sim card number, hotlink sarawak plan, cheaper i tell you.
12)must have item atleast one in my entire teenage life - skinny jeans
13)new sling bag from Pull & Bear cost = RM150 below i guess
14)new ring to wear so i can show people that im married, hahaha
15)new hairdo before i get back to UiTM
16)To reformat my laptop, this laptop getting slower than ever!
17)a big night out with friends...
18)maybe, a girl for my bday? aha, sound corny! haha

that's all i guess. :)