12.30.2008

So Last Year? Jealous? What's This??

I don't why, by looking at my friends/cousins picture in facebook/friendster/flickr is so like "making me feel so jealous". I dont know why, maybe because they're lucky enough to be able to study overseas/holiday in UK, USA, Europe, Aussie. I felt so like "aku ni ketinggalan la kot.." Macam so great lah dorang ni, mesti best dapat hidup like that in oversea.

I do feel like im in oversea walaupun aku masih dalam Malaysia Truly Asia ni. But seriously, i do feel so jealous. Sangat jealous.

Persoalan pada diri:
1.Bila aku nak dapat belajar kat luar negara?
2.Bila aku nak dapat jalan-jalan ke luar negara macam dorang?
3.Bila aku nak dapat pengalaman macam tu?
4.Takkan aku akan stuck kat Malaysia sampai bila-bila?
5.Takkan aku ni akan terperangkap dalam imijinasi sahaja?
6.Bila lah dapat jadi kaya macam dorang?

Jawapan pada persoalan diri:
1.Bila aku dah ada duit sendiri tanpa harapkan keluarga lagi.
2.Bila aku dah ada duit sendiri dengan hasil titik peluh aku sendiri.
3.Bila peluang itu muncul dan duit dengan banyaknya kat tangan.
4.Kalau aku ada usaha untuk mengubah takdir aku, maybe i won't be stuck in here.
5.Imijinasi adalah satu daya yang dapat melahirkan keinginan dan kemahuan kita dan aku pasti akan rasa motivate untuk dapatkan sesuatu tu.
6.Bila aku dah berjaya dengan kerja-kerja yang aku lakukan.

Ok.

Planning after graduate from Uitm 2010...

1.Bukak home tuition, teaching BM.
2.Bukak event management hse.
3.Kerja sebagai fashion writer, stylist dengan bersungguh-sungguh.
4.Dapatkan wang dengan banyak supaya aku dapat simpan duit.
5.Get a fucking rich girlfriend sebab dia boleh belanja aku bila aku tarak duit(bukan nak jadi mata duitan ok, sama sama tolong lah kala susah dan senang), kata orang "kau kena cari yang nampak sama taraf ngan kau"(i still dont understand what actually my friends said. its not that im rich, IM NORMAL. sangat-sangat normal)

itu antara planning awal for me after graduating in 2010. I can't wait for the moment. I miss being a teacher to kids. yes, teaching is so good. Kau bagi ilmu kat orang, kira kau seorang yang bagus. :)

So, aku rasa tak pe la, biar lah aku lewat ke negara-negara tu, asalkan aku gunakan duit aku sendiri. SO,let's get moving....!

So, aku bukanlah orang-orang "so last year" in life about fashion ke, holiday trip ke, yang penting, where i am now and then, the most important thing is im happy the way i live on.

so, tata.

love.

Nothing? What's Up?

Hi. I don't know why i didnt blog any story of me lepaking with my friends at all. I was wandering, why? haha, maybe im too lazy to write it down but it doesnt meant that they're not important ok!

They're important to me. Let's chronology the lepaks that we had.

First lepak this semester:
Rasta, with Naz, Jo, Iqa and Dot.

2nd lepak:
place cant remember, with i cant remember.

3rd lepak:
Rasta, with Naz, Dot, Mint, Jaz, Jo, Ji, Cheeka, Alieff, Adzam.

4th lepak:
Great Eastern Mall, with Jiar.

5th and so on, Banyak nak mampus. Aku dah tak ingat.

But i love hanging out with my cousins too! They're funny, superb and chillo.

=)

Well, im not off yet to Uitm cause im going back late. Sangat malas to go back there early.

RM440.00 from my PTPTN loan will be deduct for my Fees. and the rest to keep and to buy new phone. =)

I cant wait new sem which start 30th, which is today. Haha, im going to ponteng for three days. yeaho! Ive shopped for my new sem shirts and work pants, i got a new shoe too from FourSkin, it's Victoria shoe that i've ever wanted so bad plus it is affordable: RM99.90. Lagi murah kat UK and US. hahaa ofcourse they are.

btw, i can't wait to be back with my uitm friends, they're funny and jolly. Haha.
Let's wait for the new entry next year. Oh yeah, starting from next year, i'll not blog about myself or any story about what happened to me. Just gonna post poem, lyrics, fashion styling and that's it. ;)

Hope everything will be great for the next year ahead. =)

love.

12.27.2008

Senja

Aku adalah senja
yang berdiri dalam jiwa
Aku adalah senja
yang bersama dalam rima

Aku adalah rindu
yang bersama kala malam
Aku adalah cinta
yang membisik kala hujan

Mungkin aku sepi
Mungkin aku sunyi
kerna semua itu hanyalah emosi
yang berbayang dalam diri

Aku akan terus berjuang
dalam hidup yang beronak
Aku akan terus berlawan
dalam hidup yang berintang

Kerna aku yakin semua
yang baik akan hadir
Kerna aku yakin semua
yang buruk itu adalah dugaan

Usah sedih
Usah layu
Wahai kaumku,
Kerna kita masih berpijak
dibumi yang nyata

created just now =)
A challenge by Nona, so here it goes.
xo

12.26.2008

Move Along

While i was watching Over Her Dead Body, this song pop ups as the score in one of the scene, Totally chilled me!! listen okay.. Move Along by American Rejects

Go ahead and waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your...
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know ya do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your...
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along

(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
(Along) along (along) along (along) along (along)

[Softly:]
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do.
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along

[Loudly:]
Just to make through
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do.
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x2]

Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
[Simultaneously]
[Fade out]

xo

12.25.2008

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas and have a great holiday alright :)

All i want for christmas is you, you and you.

=)

xo

12.23.2008

It's Back, The Return of the Time

:) I've done checking my time table for semester 4 schedule. :) 2 calculating subject and 4 writing subject. Ok. here the time table.


done

xo.

12.22.2008

to left unknown

Do you prefer to be unknown or known?
bold or unbold?
tight or free?

tell me your opinion!

My love is yours only*

* -Yuna's After midnite lyrics.

xo

Seperti Dulu

Selalu ku mengharapkan
Kau akan segera pulang
Kau balik seperti dulu
Menghapuskan rindu
Yang sering menghantuiku

Semenjak kau datang
Di hatiku sayang
Semua resahku hilang
Diriku bukanlah
Seorang yang mudah
Menyerahkan cinta semudah kata

Kudambakan cinta
Indah seperti dulu
Kerna cintaku tak pernah rasa jemu
Biar hati bimbang
Aku terus menunggu
Benar ku tahu kau tak pernah jauh
Kau di hatiku

Di hari yang datang
Janganlah kau ulang
Lukai hatiku sayang
Aku pun bukanlah
Seorang yang bisa
Menggantikan cinta sekelip mata

Aku inginkan cinta
Kita seperti dulu
Kerna cintaku tak mudah rasa jemu
Biar hati bimbang
Aku terus menunggu
Dan aku tahu kau tak pernah jauh
Kau di hatiku

I know this a melo-rock song.. haha. I just love it when i first listen to it few years back.. it tells some story behind the lyrics.. :)

xo

12.21.2008

Sunyi

Entah berapa ribu kali tambah juta rasanya, aku rasa sangat sunyi walaupun sedang melepak with friends and cousins... i end up feeling so lost and nothing. But it does help me to forget someone, im happy that i dont think of her anymore. Glad i did. the best thing to do to forget someone is by lepaking with people. :) that's the answer for all the question.

sunyi tanpa malam menemani
sunyi kala telefon bimbit tidak berdering
sunyi tanpa tawa
sunyi tanpa cinta

tapi aku tak ready untuk semua tu, aku takut. aku sendiri takut dengan diri aku. selagi aku tak temui aku yang sebenarnya, selagi itu aku akan dibayangi diri aku.

scared is all i am now.

xo

12.19.2008

Broken Strings

Let me hold you
For the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can’t feel anything

When I love you
It’s so untrue
I can’t even convince myself
When I’m speaking
It’s the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it’s not enough
To make it all okay

You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
A lie is worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train
When it’s too late

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it’s not enough
To make it all okay

You can’t play our broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

But we’re running through the fire
When there’s nothing left to say
It’s like chasing the very last train
When we both know it’s too late

You can’t play our broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
Oh and I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It’s the last change to feel again

a soppy ballad-pop-ish by James Morrison & Nelly Furtado.

Ngak Tauk Ngapain

Yes, saya ngak tauk ngapain. My big question to myself. I don't know why the people i used to had scandal/crush at uitm now contacting me back. First, L, she started by phone miss called last week like everyday, i just ignored. Then came, T start to sms me and miss called me. I eventually pull off myself from T when i knew that she was having something something with my good friend's Amir J a.k.a Farid Kamil uitm because Amir doesnt know that i used to have crushed over T and after she broke up with her ex, we started contacted as a scandal. For somehow, i stopped the feeling and it end there when i knew she was having something with Amir.

So, now came my junior part 1, a same name like T, lets name her X. X suddenly sms-ed me asking me my result, i just replied the truth la kan. Then suddenly she became so nice and wonderful. i was surprised because before this she rarely reply my sms and smile at me. I was like OK, jual mahal, so what. I ignored. I had this feeling of that she somehow nak dekat-dekat dengan i. Ok, it depends. But honestly, i will not get back to her for once if she doesnt smile or at least say hi to me in the next semester, i will give her a try as A FRIEND only. not more than that. that's it. But at least for now, im not so sad over my result although it's kinda bullshit and bad i can say that. But, i wont be sad cus enough is enough, past is past, failure doesnt mean you gonna fail the rest of ur life. There's a lot more to experience out there, study hard and im gonna struggle for the next and new chapter of semester 09.

My mission to at least achieve my resolution and saving money. That's it for now.

kamek maok tangga cta Gossip Girl dolok. Daa~

xo

12.17.2008

Rintis

Rintisan hujan membasahi mata
Kidung yang luka berdarah ada
Yang sepi terubat kini
Yang jauh tidak kenang lagi

Lepaskan semua
Aku dah lepaskan semua
Lepaskan benci
Aku dah lepaskan juga

Mungkin ini semua adalah yang terbaik
pernah hadir dalam hidup
selama ini dibebani rasa sakit
sudah aku rasai, kini aku bahagia

aku sendiri
lebih nyaman
disamping keluarga dan saudaraku
kerana mereka membuatku
lebih tertawa dan gembira

mungkin disitulah aku,
yang sebenarnya.

12.16.2008

Cuak

Cuak, bila esok tiba.

siapa tahu kenapa?

kalau tahu, korang memang hebat!

aku nak pi shisha dulu....

xo

12.15.2008

Superman, No Im Not!

I've been heading in the wrong direction
Hiding from my own protection
Running but my heart was standing still
I guess you saw the light inside me
Your love has been a torch to guide me
I hope I can be all that you deserve

[Chorus]
Well I'm not superman
But I'll love you the best I can
And you know I'm just flesh and bones, but with you
I feel I'm flying
Don't you know I'm not superman
But I'll always be your man

I was searching for a heart that's beating
As fast as the way I'm feeling
Trying to find some peace there in my soul
You know it was your love that saved me
The answer to my prayers you gave me
And I hope I'll be all you deserve

[Repeat chorus]

I'd fight for you
I'd die for you
You know I would
Hold back the night, light up the sky
Oh if I could...

[Repeat chorus]

I'll always be your man
I'll always be your man.

Superman - Ronan Keating

Another great song i just found yesterday! :)

Failed Connection, Love Lane is Down

Ive been away for days, ive been busy with works and my dearie cousin, Kak Zetty wedding because im the wedding official photographer. so its been busy. I'll be uploading photos through Facebook only. Ive been thinking to delete Myspace and Friendster and stay only in Facebook but then, i felt so sayang to the both site because ive been using the website for quite some time. :)

Yesterday, we all, cousins, went to lepak at Zahrat Al Khaleeg, located at the heart of KL, beside the Castle. It was such a good night. Need me to name who is there? alright, let see.... Azrin, Reza, Razlan, Cheeka, Alieff, Adzam, Ira, Amir, Shah, Jojo, Jiji, Azrul & Me. I think the place got the best Shisha/Hookah that ive ever tasted. It was so great! Officially said, im going there anytime soon, so anyone? After the lepak-ing and Shisha-ing until 12pm, went to Ain's place at Tropicana, it's my third time there, he is my 2nd cousin so jarang jumpa la, but whatever it is, the place is so damn GREAT. I like it there. The place is a mansion. :) I like everything about the house... We enjoyed ourselves with Pool, Foss ball, Kick Boxing, ROCK BAND game and the photo session with cheeka & jojo.

It was great night, it's one of the best night i got so far. Went home 4.00 am. Got lock out because forgot to bring keys, i slept infront of the door. :)

So, Next time, i shall not forget to bring my house key.

Til Then.

12.11.2008

Maafkan

kubaca dari sinar matamu
sekilas mungkin kutahu
namun rasaku tak bisa
menjawab saat sekarang

ada cinta lain di hatiku
bukan kamu yang ku mau
ada yg lain yg belum
tentu juga mau aku

maafkan bila ku tak bisa denganmu
maafkan bila sayang itu tak ada
maafkan ku bolehkan kamu menunggu
maafkan bila ku nanti jadi mau
maafkan bukannya aku tak berhati
ku hanya ingin cinta yg aku cintai

kubaca dari sinar matamu
sekilas mungkin kutahu
namun rasaku tak bisa
menjawab saat sekarang

ada cinta lain di hatiku
bukan kamu yg ku mau
ada yg lain yg belum
tentu juga mau aku

maafkan bila ku tak bisa denganmu
maafkan bukannya aku tak berhati
ku hanya ingin cinta yg aku cintai

Dimas Beck - OST BBB

I just love the song! ;)

Complicating You, Is Messing With Heart

To understand me, is to show your appreciation towards me.
To know me, is to critic me.
To be with me, is to sacrifice your time.
To earn me, understand three above.

If you want me to love you,
you gotta know how is it to handle me,
because im too complicated to handle.
I don't make an exclusive because i date more than 2 girls at a time.

It's the best for me to know,
who is better and not.

If complicated hassling you,
why don't you leave at first?
making me hard moving on.

thanks god. thanks to friends. thanks to the tv show,
for proving me that im worth than just a conversation.

learn to respect, understand and how to earn me,
because one day, you might receive the best of me.

Im not lying. try and give it a shot.
You might get me.

12.09.2008

Scared

Things that you scared the most to do, is the worthwhile experience to be doing actually. Just a theory of mine. I think i'll do my big gesture for myself soon.

=)

xo

12.07.2008

Remind You, No I won't

Someone close reminded me about my health situation. I couldn't help but to think about it over and over again. I hate this part when people start to lecture me about my health! I just wanna live like everyone else. It is suck when someone told you, "you have the "that" disease, so let's not smoking anymore.." i just laughed. I intend to laugh more but then there's my sister in law, so yeah, respect people.

the point of is, i don't care anymore about my health, if i happen to die tomorrow, that's fate right? we shall agreed to our agreement with god. don't you think so? i wanna be happy with everyone i know and i wanna meet everyone.

Hope everything will be alright!

xo.

Thanks God.

I thank god.

Thank god for making me.
Thank god for loving me.
Thank god for giving me into a great and fun, loving family.
Thank god for letting me be alive.

Thank god for giving me such a great life.
Thank god for giving the friends i needed the most.
Thank god for making me stronger day by day.
Thank god for making me look stronger too even tho you know im actually weak at heart.
Thank god for giving the best medicine ive ever got since kids.

I never thought i could get those i didn't wish for.
It is a miracle, to have the people around me,
to know them, to understand them.
I appreciated in this life.
Im happy even tho life is short.

I know ive always been a dreamer,
and God has given me the path to choose.
God let me be.
Im just way feeling better.

Ya Allah, kepadamu aku bersujud dan aku bersyukur.
Terima Kasih.

Ya Allah,
only you know how pain it is to carry on like this.

til then.

xo.

12.06.2008

Aku dah okay. Aku dah okay. and Im happy today, sume stress dah mampus. :) hehehe. thanks to my cousins for making my day and my besties! you guys rock.

Im happy to be able to hang out with my cousins - Jiji, Jojo, Niesa, Zura... err my lil brother. and my n niesa friend from uitm, Rika for lepaking at OU. Thanks. Cheeka n Alieff for coming to Rasta!

Thanks to bestie: Naz, Dot, Jaz, Mint who came to settle the problem that we dont wanna mention.
Great its finally over!! :D yeay, we all can go picnic one day one day. :)

=) and im happy to be myself again.

xo.

12.05.2008

Bila Kata Tak Bisa Diucap

Kadang-kala manusia gagal berucap, meluahkan dan memberi tindak balas tentang apa yang mereka rasakan tentang sesuatu. Aku, kadang-kala pun begitu. Tiada orang begitu sempurna didunia ini, benar, itu tepat. Tapi, kalau kita tidak meluahkan apa rasa dihati, diminda dan dijiwa, siapa akan tahu apa yang kita fikirkan? Memang, aku tak nafikan kadang-kala senyap dan tidak memberi respon apa-apa adalah perkara yang terbaik untuk dilakukan. Kalau ia menyeksa pihak yang lain, kenapa harus begitu, bukan? Aku tak paham akan sesetengah manusia dibumi ini, tak boleh ke cakap, beri respon atau sekadar jawapan jujur? Nak biar orang tu senyap, terasa bodoh, terasa gila, dan separuh mati baru nak bagitahu? Jangan. Nanti, ada orang akan kata 'you're being so selfish'.

"Silent Treatment" yang kita selalu dengar bukanlah satu langkah baik untuk kita lakukan kala tak dapat memberi jawapan. Ya, aku sudah penat dan terasa macam erk? apa ni. Kenapa susah untuk berkata? kalau susah ... just a sms pun tak boleh? leave me an email or something... im talking about people in generally. I hate when people start giving excuses.

Kita terasa ditipu. bila kita ditipu, kita akan berang. kita akan kecewa. kita akan terluka. Kenapa kita menangis? mengingatkan semua perkara yang berlaku. Perkara yang menyakitkan hati, mata, telinga dan jiwa. Ya, itu lumrah hidup yang tak bisa kita lari. Kalau kita tak terjebak, mungkin bisa diselamatkan juga. Mungkin kalau kita buat bodoh dan jalani hidup kita tanpa kisah akan orang lain, kita akan lebih baik. tak perlu nak hirau hidup orang lain. itu yang akan aku lakukan. aku dah puas begini.

baik tak payah kenal langsung siapa kita kan? baik abaikan kita kalau tanak cakap sepatah haram pun. baik tak payah tegur langsung! kadang-kadang itu yang kita harapkan tapi tak semudah itu yang kita mahukan akan kita perolehi. kita sayang, kita lepaskan. kita cinta, kita peluknya. tetapi, kalau ia membebankan diri dan dia, bagus lepas sahaja. jangan dikenang, jangan diungkit. ternyata ia menyakitkan. sakit hati. sakit jiwa. sakit mata. macam apa yang aku hadapi kini. aku sakit semua. aku dah tak tahan. kalau boleh nak cabut saja nyawa ni. tapi aku tak sanggup, mungkin belum masa aku.

tapi kadang-kadang kita takut. takut kata akan menyeksa. takut kata akan melarikan dia. takut untuk melepaskan. takut untuk mengecapi bahagia. takut untuk apa sebenarnya. kalau masih takut dan tidak mengambil peluang itu, selamanya kita kan terseksa. pada aku, aku tak pernah takut. tak pernah takut untuk dikecewakan, dihancuri, dipijak dan diludah. ya, ada diantaranya meludah, dan mahu kembali, jawapannya tidak. ada yang mengecewakan, aku biarkan saja kecewa itu, masa akan mengubati jiwa. tapi berapa lama tak tahu. aku tak nafikan aku kosong. aku tiada rasa ingin berkasih sayang atau apa sahaja korang gelarkan ia. aku dah benci.

aku benci sehingga ia menjadi dendam. dendam yang akan terpahat dalam sanubari. biar dendam ini terus membara dan aku berharap masing-masing temu bahagia. aku taknak bahagia lagi. aku hanya mahukan yang terbaik untuk aku. jujur, aku kini mahu menjadi lebih materialistik. aku takkan pedulikan kata orang, lantaklah aku nak jadi apa. suka hati aku. yang penting hidup aku aku jalani sendiri. bukan korang. kalau aku kecewa, sapa ada? kalau aku menangis, sapa ada? kalau aku gembira, sapa ada? aku rasa macam hilang, aku hilang dari semua. aku macam tak wujud depan sesiapa. aku dah tak larat untuk semua ini. macam satu hikpokrit untuk menunjuk kepada semua yang aku sebenarnya bahagia tetapi asalnya langsung tidak. oh aku tak suka, tak suka begini lagi. so, abaikan aku sahaja lah kamu, ye.

maka kepada sesiapa, tolonglah, katakan sesuatu jika mahu tiada tali, jangan membiarkan orang lain terus terluka dan menjadi derita. its a pain you never know. jangan simpan dan terus menjadikan ia satu fikiran bodoh. kalau anda mahu bahagia, bahagialah anda tapi adakah anda gembira melihat yang lain sengsara? kata saya: ucapkan sahaja kata-kata anda, jangan simpan, ia lebih bagus untuk diberitahu kepadanya. biar dia tahu situasi sebenar. jangan biar dia tergantung. ok, everyone?

*ini cara aku lepaskan geram aku. aku dah bingit kepala otak. tak tahan dengan semua disekeliling. nak pecah otak pun ada. benci benci tengok apa yang terjadi pada aku, macam rasa nak bombkan diri pun ada. ok. itu sahaja luahan kegeraman aku ni. hope tiada yang terasa hati. aku just geram. tu je. maaf terkasar bahasa.

xo.

12.04.2008

Where do I Begin?

Where should i start? When should i do? How the consequence would be then?

These questions has been in my head for days. All i want for me now is to find my own self. I thought i found it. But i didn't. I didn't found it when i was away for months ago. Yet, I still want to give myself a try, try to find myself. When i was away last time, i had to do it, it is for my own good. I ran away from my friends, from everyone. I hardly reply any of my friends, cousins calls or sms. I was down. I had to look for ME.

Honestly, i havent find the Me in Myself. What's the use of living if you're actually dying inside and out? What's the use of being so happy when you are actually not even happy? It's like your life is like a fake. Living in a fake life. I tried so hard to be good, happy and lucky. I didn't look for anything more than what i already have. I just want a peaceful and harmony life without distraction from people. Yes, that is what i wished for all this time. I think im hunger for love. To be honest, I've never ever been feel being loved by someone tenderly. I do believe that there's people who cares about me, yeah that i cant deny because it is true cause ive friends and family cares about me.

I need to find myself again. I guess, this time, i will try to find it in myself. I need to be away from everyone(excp. close friends) and everything except my work! It's the best i guess.
The longer i will be away, the longer it means i need to find myself once again. I need to find myself before i gave up everything on myself.

Thank you all for your kind of supports.

Will cherish it!

xo.

12.03.2008

New Year is Around

Since new year is coming and im doing an article about new year for my magazine. I want to write down my new year resolution and hope.

Resolution:
1) Stop looking for girl.
2) Stop easy fall for girl.
3) Stop thinking about love.
4) Stop eating.
5) Study hard, get a better result.
6) Be a low profile guy.
7) Be humble.
8) Work harder.
9) Stop procrastinating.
10) Be happy no matter what happens.

Hope:
1) To be a better person.
2) To be someone useful.
3) Be a good friend to everyone.
4) People will stop talking stuff about me.
5) Make new friends.
6) To eat less. more fasting.
7) Spend less money.
8) Spend more time on study.
9) Enough of outing everyday.
10) Stop overnight at the beach.

yeah, i guess that is my resolution and hope. I hope i can do it. I need to lost my weight to atleast 57kg. Currently 70kg. I can't even wear a sampin. bad move yeah so now gotta earn it or i'll be more fatter than i am now.

xo.

Cuba

Cuba kau dengar
Cuba kau cuba
Diam bila ku cuba
Untuk berbicara dengan kamu

Pernahkah kau andai
Bila ku perlu
Tuk meluahkan rasa hati

Dan bila kau bersuara
Setia ku mendengar
Agar tenangkan merasa

Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang mendapatkan aku
Itulah aku
Pada mu

Cuba kau lihat
Cuba kau cuba
Renung ke mata aku
Bila ku kaku melihat mu
Pernahkan kau ada
Bila ku perlu tuk menyatakan
Rasa sakit dalam diri

Dan bila kau perlu
Setia ku menunggu
Agar senang kau merasa

Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang mendapatkan aku
Itulah aku

Maafkan kerana ku tak pernah
Terlintas tuk menulis padamu
Salahkan ku
Tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
Untuk kau mendengar..
Untuk kau melihat ke mata ku..

Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang mendapatkan aku
Itulah aku
Padamu


Faizal Tahir

12.02.2008

Music Tag

I took this one from Kiki's blog. I dont know what to update with my blog, so the tag explain well.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW silly it sounds.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.


1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" ... you say?
- fikirlah by aizat
(a good answer yea)


2. How would you describe yourself?
- Looking In by Mariah Carey / France Guy

(its all about me babe!)

3. What do you like in a girl?
- When You Really love someone by Alicia Keys
(meant a lot huhu)


4. How do you feel today?
- Yang Pernah by Estranged

(SGT TEPAT!)


5.What is your life's purpose?
- Stay by Estrella

(Maybe! stay for people)

6. What is your motto?
- Lucky by Jason Mraz & Colbie Cailat

(yeah yeah yeah)

7. What do your friends think of you?
- hot and cold by Katy Perry

8. What do you think of your parents?
- Bleeding love by Leona Lewis


9. What do you think about very often?
- whatever it takes by leona lewis


10. What is 2 + 2?
- edge of seventeen by lindsay lohan


11. What do you think of your best friend?
- extraordinary by mandy moore


12. What do you think of the person you like?
- my all by mariah carey

13. What is your life story?
- thats what you get by paramore

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
- stranded by jennifer paige

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
- who needs shelter by jason mraz


16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
- carnival by the cardigans


17. What will they play at your funeral?
- hati berbisik by dato' siti nurhaliza


18.What is your hobby/interest?
- back to you by john mayer

19. What is your biggest fear?
- caught in the middle by A1


20. What is your biggest secret?
- the world is not enough by garbage


21. What do you think of your friends?
- Mi Chico Latino by Geri Halliwell


22. What will you post this as?
- it's not over by daughtry


xo

12.01.2008

The Trouble with Love is....

Oooh oooh, ooooh yeah, mmmm...

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

Now I was once a fool, it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder, but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

(The trouble with) The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin'
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

(The trouble with love is) The trouble with love, yeah
(It can tear you up inside) It can tear you up inside
(Make your heart believe a lie) Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride

(The trouble with love is)
It's in your heart
It's in your soul (doesn't care how fast you fall)
You won't get no control
(and you can't refuse the call)
See, you got no say at all

(The trouble with love is) Oh, yeah
(It can tear you up inside)
(Make your heart believe a lie)