6.30.2009

What's you?

Im sorry, i really want to be with you so badly til i want to choke myself up. I really need to be with you, who accept me the way i am and the complicated life im living in.

I just wanna hold your hand and say I love you when i meant it and Never say goodbye because i know i'll be meeting you everyday.

Im just a hopeless guy in love. I don't need someone to adores me but someone who will love me like the way i am.

because im wondering, what's life without love? what's me without you?

- ever fallen in love.

6.28.2009

Changeling

People change themselves early January, i start mine in June, end of June perhaps. Oh, perhaps, my resolutions have made it changes too now.

I'll be someone you don't expect me to be anymore, i won't be the same. I'm on my changeling moment right now. If yesterday i was at a down tunnel but today, I'm at the top tunnel. I won't let people easily hurts my feeling anymore. I wont let anyone touch me easily like they used to do. I won't let people look down on me. I won't let people stare at me like I'm some kind of a moron or some kind of a jerk. I won't let my best friends down. I want to change some status of my best friends into just friends. Some of them are listed, some aren't. I won't take my words back. I won't be too nice to everyone so that people couldn't step over my head . That's the new me, the old me - just died yesterday.

I won't take any hard feelings anymore on criticism. I won't led. I won't be your guidance of angel no more. If you think you are nice, then I'll be nice to you too. If you are some kind of psycho or bitch/bastard, sorry, you won't be in my best friends circle anymore. I had enough of those crap, I need to be mature enough to see who's my friends and who's not. Eventually, i already see the big picture. I see myself getting better and greater without those kind of friends.

I just need the access to be what i want and not what they wish. If you can't accept for whom i am, then don't bother knowing me at a glance of chance, I'll be happy with living my life like this. I just want to be myself for the fucking real time, if you're not happy with me, don't ever make me living like a hell, no point of doing that so.

What i want and need now is just a few things that will make my life easier, better and fun, also happy is... first, i think I'm ready for a real relationship with a girl. Second, i need to focus on my priority which is my work, my passion and my heart. Third, I'm gonna get serious with this music world i intend to be in, i wanna be a successful lyricist one day. Lastly, find the girl who knows how to handle me and play with my maze; I'm a very complicated person with myself and sometimes i couldn't make up my mind and decision(you should know that girl). That's it. I'll be updating more if i have some add-on.

I hope this new resolutions and the new me make you guys clear and suit with the situation right now and forever. And I offer you my deeply apology if I've ever make anyone of you feel bad and worst at the time. I'm no angel, I'm just a human being too, I made mistakes. And again, I'm sorry and couldn't help this night gets me so hype in changing myself.

I love you, people.

Thanks for all the morale and love support. I'll remember that til my last breathe.

Take Care.

xoxo

6.25.2009

Nuta Chenta

"You didn’t love her;
you don’t destroy the people you love."

"If you haven’t cried, your eyes can’t be beautiful. — Sophia Loren"


"I don’t care about your past, all I wanna know is

if there is a place for me in your future."


my favorite quote of love.

6.23.2009

Too Soft?

Im not allow to cry just because im a guy?
Im not allow to express my feelings because im a guy?

what is the useful of tears then?

I wanna cry, but my heart just won't let me to do so.

urgh!

6.22.2009

New Needs

Next semester needs;
1) DSLR D60
2) 3 in 1 printer
3) Nokia E63
4) Suspender
5) New slack from Pull & Bear
6) Jeans From Badger
7) White collar shirt from Padini
8) Boxers...

and lastly...

9) new pair of flip flop.

thats all.

=)

6.20.2009

Lebih Jelas

Alam,
Aku manusia biasa,
Jangan bawa dia pergi,
Kan nanti aku tangisi...

Bulan,
Katakan sahaja,
Bahawa dia masih wujud...

Mentari,
Bawakan aku mata,
agar bisa dia melihat...

aku dengan lebih jelas.

Karya Zayn.

Cari Jalan Hati

akan aku cari jalan
sedang nelihat dunia berputar
enaknya mereka bersama
terasa dingin aku dimata

akan aku cari jalan
untuk menemui cintaku
kala malam membisik sesuatu
angin melayang diudara itu

akan aku cari jalan
untuk memiliki ruang waktu
mencapai segala dibenak otak
sehingga terbernas diluarannya

akan aku cari jalan
bagaimana untuk menanti
kenali erti setia
ajari perasaan sayang

bila ku temui jalan itu
aku kan tahu kaulah perawan itu
yang bermain di legar laman
hatiku...

karya Zayn.

Juni Ini

Juni Ini
Takdir merekah ke atas aku
Yang buruk dan baik jua hadir
Ada kala tersentap bibir

Juni Ini
Aku merasakan kekosongan
Kerana bagian dari hidupku
Telah lenyap dibawa awan biru

Saat siang berganti malam
Saat minit berganti jam
semuanya telah berubah
manusia jua berubah

Mentari di ufuk sana
Akan kibar satu masa
Aku tunggu semua itu
bagi merasa panasnya dosa dunia

Juni Ini
Harapan tinggal impian
Segalanya sudah tiada
Yang tinggal hanyalah memori

Juni Ini
Sungguhnya
Aku berharap ada dia disisi
Namun hati ini masih kosong
Tanpa sebarang isinya...

Karya Zayn

6.19.2009

Hati Kering

Hati itu sudah kering
Mengenangkan cinta yang tiada
Apa kan daya
Semuanya telah terbang

Ada nikmat
lalu dilepaskan saja
Bila sepi
ternangis-nangis

Mahukan cinta
sudah terlambat
Dia berlalu dengan si dia
kau termenung membalut

Cuba ingat
saat dia kejar kau
Bila dia rasa mahu
dan kau tak mahu

Dan kini kau rasai
apa yang dia rasai
terdahulu kala
punyai hati serupa
bagai kau kini

karya Zayn.

6.17.2009

Kucupan Terakhir

Bibir mungilmu pernah ku kucup,
Tubuh lenggangmu pernah ku peluk,

itu hanya dahulu,
telah ku sedar dari lamunan,

kau hanya bayang asmara,
yang hadir...
dari kenangan lama.

Urat Benih

aku kata keluar
kau kata tak mahu
aku kata bencinya
kau kata tak malu
aku kata tak faham bahasa?
kau kata sayang

aku kata kau gila
kau kata kau cinta
aku kata tak rindu
kau kata kau tetap rindu

aku kata hambarlah kau
kau kata tak mengapa
aku kata stop it lah
kau kata mahu cuba

aku kata siapa suruh
kau kata suka hatilah
aku kata jangan
kau kata nak

aku kata tak nak
kau kata mari rasa
aku kata tak tahan dengan perangai kau
kau kata maaf, mahu tunggu

aku dah bosan
dengan
semua katamu
hentikanlah
hentikanlah
segala benih
yang ada dihatimu.

6.16.2009

Under My Skin

I hesitate to say I was bait for you
Could that be something that you all would do?
I'd be lying if I did now say I wasn't intrigued
But timing is everything here, and for the moment the "we" is reprieved
But, as I watch the girl unfold before my eyes, I discover
That I like her

Would you please get out from under my skin?
'Cause I can't begin this yet
And I don't know what my intentions are
They're speaking in a different tongue
And deep inside, I'm not as tough as I seem
But I won't let you know
Until it's right, I'm gonna stay my distance
And you should go

I'm in the dance, and it's a chance
But stay and watch awhile
I'll be singing a tune just for you with a smile
And maybe, if I'm lucky
You'll tip your hat to me, and you'll discover
That you like her

Would you please get out from under my skin?
'Cause I can't begin this yet
And I don't know what my intentions are
They're speaking in a different tongue
And, deep inside, I'm not as tough as I seem
But I won't let you know
Until it's right, I'm gonna stay my distance
And you should go

Crazy as it all plays out
I think I'm lonelier than I've ever been before
'Cause I was so close
To going through that door
But I don't want to be to blame for them
I don't want to be to blame

Oh, would you please get out from under my skin?
'Cause I can't begin this yet
And I don't know what my intentions are
They're speaking in a different tongue
And, deep inside, I'm not as tough as I seem
But I won't let you know
Until it's right, I'm gonna stay my distance, and you should go
Oh, would you please get out
I'm not as strong as I seem, but I won't let you know



Rachael Yamagata

6.13.2009

Passing By

People called home as a place for family,
I call home as a place for business.

some bestfriends shouldnt be called as bestfriends,
because they are not meant to be one.


when you're down,
let it be because you yourself knows you better.

over and over

i just want to be loved.
i just want to love someone.
that's all.

6.12.2009

Pasrah

Aku pasrah.
Aku kecewa.
Tiada apa yang dapat merasakan.
Aku mahu lari.
Penyesalan yang bodoh.
Benciku.
Pada diriku.
Benciku.
Pada hari jadiku.
Semua telah tersurat.
Aku fikir aku nak berhenti sahaja.
Macam bodoh je belajar.

So, 50-50 aku akan kembali ke uitm.

ciao~

6.10.2009

Heartless...


























In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told

Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so cold?
As the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me though

I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me

And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

How could be so Dr. Evil?
You're bringin' out a side of me that I don't know
I decided we wasn't goin' speak so
Why we up 3 a.m. on the phone?

Why does she be so mad at me for?
Homie, I don't know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go

You run and tell your friends that you're leavin' me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

Talkin', talkin', talkin' talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you

So I got somethin' new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies

I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?



Heartless... am i? maybe i am, maybe i am not.

6.09.2009

I wish you love

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
And more than wealth

I wish you love
My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best

I set you free
I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall

I wish you love
My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best

My very best
I set you free
I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm

But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love.

*Rachael Yamagata

My Favorite Game...

you know i have always play this game with
my friends and everyone. It is always about my ****.

Ok ok, this time, i have something coming up,
i want you to spot something, what is the similar things
between me n hugh dancy. ok? let's roll your eyes....








so guess it! tell me the answer!

6.08.2009

Erin Turn 20!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIN ADLINA








MAY ALLAH BLESS YOUR LIFE, FUTURE
AND BEST IN EVERYTHING YOU DO.
GO GEMINI GIRL. =D

6.07.2009

Happy... Should i?

so, what did i do yesterday?
11.30am - was at Afi's while waiting for my twin cousin.
12.00pm - went to food foundry, pj to had our lunch there
(noted:Afi, Aida, Akhim, Amir, Eena, Jo, Ji and obviously, me.)
3.00pm - separate ways at Afi's. I followed my cousin,
Ji went back to his place before heading to OU.
4.15pm - one utama. lepak.
5.00pm - walk walk, suddenly, i had my eyes glued at this girl.
my type kind of girl, Yuna's hijab style, curvy like vaneesa szhor, white, fashionable and her eyes... lovely...
but...
i dont even know her :(

and
i really wanna know her because it'll make me happy
to talk to my kind of girl that i'd really go for.

and now...
im gonna find her :)
how?
search through FB or Myspace.
one by one. It will take hours by then.
For her, i'll do something crazy to get her.

*really feel regret because i didnt go and get her number*

6.06.2009

I want but I can't

love is a wonderful journey, i must say.
I've been into love for quite sometimes.
I wanna be in love again,
without pain and fights anymore.

I wanna be in love,
with someone who understand me,
not with someone who knows me.

I wanna be in love again,
can i?,
because im too committed with my works,
so i think i can't be in love for quite some times now.

But I want to be in love
and
to feel it again.

The feeling loving someone
and
the feeling being loved by someone.

The question is
Who is the girl i should love?
I haven't found any.
Need to find but
im too scared of the rejection.

Im just an old fashioned guy,
who will be a straight forward person,
rather than playing games.

you want me,
i want you,
that's enough.

I want but i can't.

But...

Im gonna change that can't to will.

Maybe soon. Soon enough for me to discover.

I want and I will,
I must say Love is a great feeling forever.

.salam.

6.05.2009

Bosanova

sangat bosan
dipejabat.

kena siapkan juga
kerja bulan 7 - 12.

sangat bosan.

tiada rakan muda-mudi.

6.04.2009

Kata Aku

oh, aku dalam proses perubahan,
untuk menjadi modal insan,
itulah mahuku impian,
agar sentiasa dirahmati oleh-Nya.

oh, aku tak peduli lagi,
mereka kata keji,
mereka kata perli,
mereka kata caci,

lantak lah,
hidup aku cara aku lah,
kalau tak suka cara perubahan aku ini,
jangan kawan lah,
simpan je semua kenangan indah itu,

aku aku aku,
tetap sama macam aku yang dulu,
dari segi sikap, perangai, gaya bahasa,
sudah lain lah,
tak macam dulu lagi,
macam yang bisa kau pijak-pijak,
tertawa-tawakan.

lawak?
kampung?
tak hebat?
tak trendy?

lantak lah,
aku fikir yang kekal disana,
bukan didunia yang sementara,
macam kau yang tak pernah sedar langsung,
maaf,
itulah kau.

mintak pendapat,
ku berikan,
mintak ajar,
ku tunjukkan,
mintak hormat,
ku berikan,
mintak nasihat,
ku ceritakan.

aku syukur kerna Allah s.w.t. uji aku diwaktu aku membesar,
aku syukur kerna Allah s.w.t. pelihara aku sentiasa dan selamanya,
aku syukur kerna Allah s.w.t. sayang aku,
aku syukur kerna Allah s.w.t. bagi aku peluang untuk berubah...

harapnya,
kau pun sama ye kawan.
sama-samalah kita insaf kerna Allah s.w.t. sentiasa menyayangi hambanya,
Allah s.w.t. sentiasa buka pintu langit untuk kita bertaubat,
kau nak jadi superstar ke apa ke, jadilah,
yang penting, ingat yang di-Atas.

salam.

*tiada kaitan dengan sesiapa pun oke!*

6.02.2009

Hargailah...

kadang-kala manusia alpa dengan apa yang mereka telah miliki dan punyai,
kadang-kala manusia tidak reti untuk menghargai apa yang mereka punyai,
kadang-kala mereka langsung tidak pernah bersyukur dengan apa yang mereka punyai,
kadang-kala mereka tidak merasa puas,
mahu lebih lagi,
untuk merasa mereka telah punyai semuanya.

sayangnya,
mereka lupa,
yang di-Atas,
Di Atas memberi satu, Dia menarik satu.
Tuhan Maha Adil.
Dia beri sesuatu, dia ambil sesuatu.
Mungkin kita masih tak sedar,
ada diantara kita kehilangan sesuatu sebenarnya.

carilah, jangan disampai satu masa,
rasa sesal itu muncul menyelubung diri,
kehilangan sememangnya tak indah
tetapi cuba hargai apa yang ada dihadapanmu selama ini.

salam.

02062009

6.01.2009

Celebrity Mode with me


mila & me


amber chia & me


maya karin & me


me & kris dayanti


me & erra fazira


me & dato' siti nurhaliza


me & dayang nurfaizah

Janji Manismu

I was this...

young and innocent back then...





but now everything has changed to...





ya Allah, so many changes and yet still doing the same mistake i am... insyaAllah, i can change to something better... on my way...

poem - seribu

seribu langkah ku capai
sehingga lelah takkan pernah hadir
seribu tangan ku genggam
sehingga takkan terputus persahabatan

seribu kata cuba ku luah
sehingga berhenti kata-kata kesat
seribu cara ku rasakan
sehingga diri benar-benar insaf

seribu hari mungkin ada
sehingga aku benar-benar mengerti
tentang hidup dan jalan ini
buka haluan untuk kembali
bukan mundur seperti
anak-anak setan dijalanan

I Love Susan Boyle!

me!

Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.