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So Last Year? Jealous? What's This??

I don't why, by looking at my friends/cousins picture in facebook/friendster/flickr is so like "making me feel so jealous". I dont know why, maybe because they're lucky enough to be able to study overseas/holiday in UK, USA, Europe, Aussie. I felt so like "aku ni ketinggalan la kot.." Macam so great lah dorang ni, mesti best dapat hidup like that in oversea.

I do feel like im in oversea walaupun aku masih dalam Malaysia Truly Asia ni. But seriously, i do feel so jealous. Sangat jealous.

Persoalan pada diri:
1.Bila aku nak dapat belajar kat luar negara?
2.Bila aku nak dapat jalan-jalan ke luar negara macam dorang?
3.Bila aku nak dapat pengalaman macam tu?
4.Takkan aku akan stuck kat Malaysia sampai bila-bila?
5.Takkan aku ni akan terperangkap dalam imijinasi sahaja?
6.Bila lah dapat jadi kaya macam dorang?

Jawapan pada persoalan diri:
1.Bila aku dah ada duit sendiri tanpa harapkan keluarga lagi.
2.Bila aku dah ada duit sendiri dengan hasil titik peluh aku sendiri.
3.Bil…

Nothing? What's Up?

Hi. I don't know why i didnt blog any story of me lepaking with my friends at all. I was wandering, why? haha, maybe im too lazy to write it down but it doesnt meant that they're not important ok!

They're important to me. Let's chronology the lepaks that we had.

First lepak this semester:
Rasta, with Naz, Jo, Iqa and Dot.

2nd lepak:
place cant remember, with i cant remember.

3rd lepak:
Rasta, with Naz, Dot, Mint, Jaz, Jo, Ji, Cheeka, Alieff, Adzam.

4th lepak:
Great Eastern Mall, with Jiar.

5th and so on, Banyak nak mampus. Aku dah tak ingat.

But i love hanging out with my cousins too! They're funny, superb and chillo.

=)

Well, im not off yet to Uitm cause im going back late. Sangat malas to go back there early.

RM440.00 from my PTPTN loan will be deduct for my Fees. and the rest to keep and to buy new phone. =)

I cant wait new sem which start 30th, which is today. Haha, im going to ponteng for three days. yeaho! Ive shopped for my new sem shirts and work pants, i got a new shoe …

Senja

Aku adalah senja
yang berdiri dalam jiwa
Aku adalah senja
yang bersama dalam rima

Aku adalah rindu
yang bersama kala malam
Aku adalah cinta
yang membisik kala hujan

Mungkin aku sepi
Mungkin aku sunyi
kerna semua itu hanyalah emosi
yang berbayang dalam diri

Aku akan terus berjuang
dalam hidup yang beronak
Aku akan terus berlawan
dalam hidup yang berintang

Kerna aku yakin semua
yang baik akan hadir
Kerna aku yakin semua
yang buruk itu adalah dugaan

Usah sedih
Usah layu
Wahai kaumku,
Kerna kita masih berpijak
dibumi yang nyata

created just now =)
A challenge by Nona, so here it goes.
xo

Move Along

While i was watching Over Her Dead Body, this song pop ups as the score in one of the scene, Totally chilled me!! listen okay.. Move Along by American Rejects

Go ahead and waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your...
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know ya do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your...
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along

(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
(Go on,…

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas and have a great holiday alright :)

All i want for christmas is you, you and you.

=)

xo

It's Back, The Return of the Time

Image
:) I've done checking my time table for semester 4 schedule. :) 2 calculating subject and 4 writing subject. Ok. here the time table.


done

xo.

to left unknown

Do you prefer to be unknown or known?
bold or unbold?
tight or free?

tell me your opinion!

My love is yours only*

* -Yuna's After midnite lyrics.

xo

Seperti Dulu

Selalu ku mengharapkan
Kau akan segera pulang
Kau balik seperti dulu
Menghapuskan rindu
Yang sering menghantuiku

Semenjak kau datang
Di hatiku sayang
Semua resahku hilang
Diriku bukanlah
Seorang yang mudah
Menyerahkan cinta semudah kata

Kudambakan cinta
Indah seperti dulu
Kerna cintaku tak pernah rasa jemu
Biar hati bimbang
Aku terus menunggu
Benar ku tahu kau tak pernah jauh
Kau di hatiku

Di hari yang datang
Janganlah kau ulang
Lukai hatiku sayang
Aku pun bukanlah
Seorang yang bisa
Menggantikan cinta sekelip mata

Aku inginkan cinta
Kita seperti dulu
Kerna cintaku tak mudah rasa jemu
Biar hati bimbang
Aku terus menunggu
Dan aku tahu kau tak pernah jauh
Kau di hatiku

I know this a melo-rock song.. haha. I just love it when i first listen to it few years back.. it tells some story behind the lyrics.. :)

xo

Sunyi

Entah berapa ribu kali tambah juta rasanya, aku rasa sangat sunyi walaupun sedang melepak with friends and cousins... i end up feeling so lost and nothing. But it does help me to forget someone, im happy that i dont think of her anymore. Glad i did. the best thing to do to forget someone is by lepaking with people. :) that's the answer for all the question.

sunyi tanpa malam menemani
sunyi kala telefon bimbit tidak berdering
sunyi tanpa tawa
sunyi tanpa cinta

tapi aku tak ready untuk semua tu, aku takut. aku sendiri takut dengan diri aku. selagi aku tak temui aku yang sebenarnya, selagi itu aku akan dibayangi diri aku.

scared is all i am now.

xo

Broken Strings

Let me hold you
For the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can’t feel anythingWhen I love you
It’s so untrue
I can’t even convince myself
When I’m speaking
It’s the voice of someone elseOh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it’s not enough
To make it all okayYou can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t realOh the truth hurts
A lie is worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than beforeOh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of usRunning back through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train
When it’s too lateOh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it’s not enough
To make it all okayYou can’t play our broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t realOh the truth hu…

Ngak Tauk Ngapain

Yes, saya ngak tauk ngapain. My big question to myself. I don't know why the people i used to had scandal/crush at uitm now contacting me back. First, L, she started by phone miss called last week like everyday, i just ignored. Then came, T start to sms me and miss called me. I eventually pull off myself from T when i knew that she was having something something with my good friend's Amir J a.k.a Farid Kamil uitm because Amir doesnt know that i used to have crushed over T and after she broke up with her ex, we started contacted as a scandal. For somehow, i stopped the feeling and it end there when i knew she was having something with Amir.

So, now came my junior part 1, a same name like T, lets name her X. X suddenly sms-ed me asking me my result, i just replied the truth la kan. Then suddenly she became so nice and wonderful. i was surprised because before this she rarely reply my sms and smile at me. I was like OK, jual mahal, so what. I ignored. I had this feeling of that sh…

Rintis

Rintisan hujan membasahi mata
Kidung yang luka berdarah ada
Yang sepi terubat kini
Yang jauh tidak kenang lagi

Lepaskan semua
Aku dah lepaskan semua
Lepaskan benci
Aku dah lepaskan juga

Mungkin ini semua adalah yang terbaik
pernah hadir dalam hidup
selama ini dibebani rasa sakit
sudah aku rasai, kini aku bahagia

aku sendiri
lebih nyaman
disamping keluarga dan saudaraku
kerana mereka membuatku
lebih tertawa dan gembira

mungkin disitulah aku,
yang sebenarnya.

Cuak

Cuak, bila esok tiba.

siapa tahu kenapa?

kalau tahu, korang memang hebat!

aku nak pi shisha dulu....

xo

Superman, No Im Not!

I've been heading in the wrong directionHiding from my own protection
Running but my heart was standing still
I guess you saw the light inside me
Your love has been a torch to guide me
I hope I can be all that you deserve

[Chorus]
Well I'm not superman
But I'll love you the best I can
And you know I'm just flesh and bones, but with you
I feel I'm flying
Don't you know I'm not superman
But I'll always be your man

I was searching for a heart that's beating
As fast as the way I'm feeling
Trying to find some peace there in my soul
You know it was your love that saved me
The answer to my prayers you gave me
And I hope I'll be all you deserve

[Repeat chorus]

I'd fight for you
I'd die for you
You know I would
Hold back the night, light up the sky
Oh if I could...

[Repeat chorus]

I'll always be your man
I'll always be your man.
Superman - Ronan Keating
Another great song i just found yesterday! :)

Failed Connection, Love Lane is Down

Ive been away for days, ive been busy with works and my dearie cousin, Kak Zetty wedding because im the wedding official photographer. so its been busy. I'll be uploading photos through Facebook only. Ive been thinking to delete Myspace and Friendster and stay only in Facebook but then, i felt so sayang to the both site because ive been using the website for quite some time. :)

Yesterday, we all, cousins, went to lepak at Zahrat Al Khaleeg, located at the heart of KL, beside the Castle. It was such a good night. Need me to name who is there? alright, let see.... Azrin, Reza, Razlan, Cheeka, Alieff, Adzam, Ira, Amir, Shah, Jojo, Jiji, Azrul & Me. I think the place got the best Shisha/Hookah that ive ever tasted. It was so great! Officially said, im going there anytime soon, so anyone? After the lepak-ing and Shisha-ing until 12pm, went to Ain's place at Tropicana, it's my third time there, he is my 2nd cousin so jarang jumpa la, but whatever it is, the place is so damn G…

Maafkan

kubaca dari sinar matamu
sekilas mungkin kutahu
namun rasaku tak bisa
menjawab saat sekarangada cinta lain di hatiku
bukan kamu yang ku mau
ada yg lain yg belum
tentu juga mau aku

maafkan bila ku tak bisa denganmu
maafkan bila sayang itu tak ada
maafkan ku bolehkan kamu menunggu
maafkan bila ku nanti jadi mau
maafkan bukannya aku tak berhati
ku hanya ingin cinta yg aku cintaikubaca dari sinar matamu
sekilas mungkin kutahu
namun rasaku tak bisa
menjawab saat sekarangada cinta lain di hatiku
bukan kamu yg ku mau
ada yg lain yg belum
tentu juga mau akumaafkan bila ku tak bisa denganmu
maafkan bukannya aku tak berhati
ku hanya ingin cinta yg aku cintaiDimas Beck - OST BBB

I just love the song! ;)

Complicating You, Is Messing With Heart

To understand me, is to show your appreciation towards me.
To know me, is to critic me.
To be with me, is to sacrifice your time.
To earn me, understand three above.

If you want me to love you,
you gotta know how is it to handle me,
because im too complicated to handle.
I don't make an exclusive because i date more than 2 girls at a time.

It's the best for me to know,
who is better and not.

If complicated hassling you,
why don't you leave at first?
making me hard moving on.

thanks god. thanks to friends. thanks to the tv show,
for proving me that im worth than just a conversation.

learn to respect, understand and how to earn me,
because one day, you might receive the best of me.

Im not lying. try and give it a shot.
You might get me.

Scared

Things that you scared the most to do, is the worthwhile experience to be doing actually. Just a theory of mine. I think i'll do my big gesture for myself soon.

=)

xo

Remind You, No I won't

Someone close reminded me about my health situation. I couldn't help but to think about it over and over again. I hate this part when people start to lecture me about my health! I just wanna live like everyone else. It is suck when someone told you, "you have the "that" disease, so let's not smoking anymore.." i just laughed. I intend to laugh more but then there's my sister in law, so yeah, respect people.

the point of is, i don't care anymore about my health, if i happen to die tomorrow, that's fate right? we shall agreed to our agreement with god. don't you think so? i wanna be happy with everyone i know and i wanna meet everyone.

Hope everything will be alright!

xo.

Thanks God.

I thank god.

Thank god for making me.
Thank god for loving me.
Thank god for giving me into a great and fun, loving family.
Thank god for letting me be alive.

Thank god for giving me such a great life.
Thank god for giving the friends i needed the most.
Thank god for making me stronger day by day.
Thank god for making me look stronger too even tho you know im actually weak at heart.
Thank god for giving the best medicine ive ever got since kids.

I never thought i could get those i didn't wish for.
It is a miracle, to have the people around me,
to know them, to understand them.
I appreciated in this life.
Im happy even tho life is short.

I know ive always been a dreamer,
and God has given me the path to choose.
God let me be.
Im just way feeling better.

Ya Allah, kepadamu aku bersujud dan aku bersyukur.
Terima Kasih.

Ya Allah,
only you know how pain it is to carry on like this.

til then.

xo.
Aku dah okay. Aku dah okay. and Im happy today, sume stress dah mampus. :) hehehe. thanks to my cousins for making my day and my besties! you guys rock.

Im happy to be able to hang out with my cousins - Jiji, Jojo, Niesa, Zura... err my lil brother. and my n niesa friend from uitm, Rika for lepaking at OU. Thanks. Cheeka n Alieff for coming to Rasta!

Thanks to bestie: Naz, Dot, Jaz, Mint who came to settle the problem that we dont wanna mention.
Great its finally over!! :D yeay, we all can go picnic one day one day. :)

=) and im happy to be myself again.

xo.

Bila Kata Tak Bisa Diucap

Kadang-kala manusia gagal berucap, meluahkan dan memberi tindak balas tentang apa yang mereka rasakan tentang sesuatu. Aku, kadang-kala pun begitu. Tiada orang begitu sempurna didunia ini, benar, itu tepat. Tapi, kalau kita tidak meluahkan apa rasa dihati, diminda dan dijiwa, siapa akan tahu apa yang kita fikirkan? Memang, aku tak nafikan kadang-kala senyap dan tidak memberi respon apa-apa adalah perkara yang terbaik untuk dilakukan. Kalau ia menyeksa pihak yang lain, kenapa harus begitu, bukan? Aku tak paham akan sesetengah manusia dibumi ini, tak boleh ke cakap, beri respon atau sekadar jawapan jujur? Nak biar orang tu senyap, terasa bodoh, terasa gila, dan separuh mati baru nak bagitahu? Jangan. Nanti, ada orang akan kata 'you're being so selfish'.

"Silent Treatment" yang kita selalu dengar bukanlah satu langkah baik untuk kita lakukan kala tak dapat memberi jawapan. Ya, aku sudah penat dan terasa macam erk? apa ni. Kenapa susah untuk berkata? kalau susah ... j…

Where do I Begin?

Where should i start? When should i do? How the consequence would be then?

These questions has been in my head for days. All i want for me now is to find my own self. I thought i found it. But i didn't. I didn't found it when i was away for months ago. Yet, I still want to give myself a try, try to find myself. When i was away last time, i had to do it, it is for my own good. I ran away from my friends, from everyone. I hardly reply any of my friends, cousins calls or sms. I was down. I had to look for ME.

Honestly, i havent find the Me in Myself. What's the use of living if you're actually dying inside and out? What's the use of being so happy when you are actually not even happy? It's like your life is like a fake. Living in a fake life. I tried so hard to be good, happy and lucky. I didn't look for anything more than what i already have. I just want a peaceful and harmony life without distraction from people. Yes, that is what i wished for all this time. I…

New Year is Around

Since new year is coming and im doing an article about new year for my magazine. I want to write down my new year resolution and hope.

Resolution:
1) Stop looking for girl.
2) Stop easy fall for girl.
3) Stop thinking about love.
4) Stop eating.
5) Study hard, get a better result.
6) Be a low profile guy.
7) Be humble.
8) Work harder.
9) Stop procrastinating.
10) Be happy no matter what happens.

Hope:
1) To be a better person.
2) To be someone useful.
3) Be a good friend to everyone.
4) People will stop talking stuff about me.
5) Make new friends.
6) To eat less. more fasting.
7) Spend less money.
8) Spend more time on study.
9) Enough of outing everyday.
10) Stop overnight at the beach.

yeah, i guess that is my resolution and hope. I hope i can do it. I need to lost my weight to atleast 57kg. Currently 70kg. I can't even wear a sampin. bad move yeah so now gotta earn it or i'll be more fatter than i am now.

xo.

Cuba

Cuba kau dengar
Cuba kau cuba
Diam bila ku cuba
Untuk berbicara dengan kamuPernahkah kau andai
Bila ku perlu
Tuk meluahkan rasa hatiDan bila kau bersuara
Setia ku mendengar
Agar tenangkan merasaSiapa sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang mendapatkan aku
Itulah aku
Pada muCuba kau lihat
Cuba kau cuba
Renung ke mata aku
Bila ku kaku melihat mu
Pernahkan kau ada
Bila ku perlu tuk menyatakan
Rasa sakit dalam diriDan bila kau perlu
Setia ku menunggu
Agar senang kau merasaSiapa sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang mendapatkan aku
Itulah akuMaafkan kerana ku tak pernah
Terlintas tuk menulis padamu
Salahkan ku
Tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
Untuk kau mendengar..
Untuk kau melihat ke mata ku..Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang mendapatkan aku
Itulah aku
Padamu
Faizal Ta…

Music Tag

I took this one from Kiki's blog. I dont know what to update with my blog, so the tag explain well.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW silly it sounds.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" ... you say?
- fikirlah by aizat (a good answer yea)

2. How would you describe yourself?
- Looking In by Mariah Carey / France Guy
(its all about me babe!)

3. What do you like in a girl?
- When You Really love someone by Alicia Keys
(meant a lot huhu)
4. How do you feel today?
- Yang Pernah by Estranged
(SGT TEPAT!)

5.What is your life's purpose?
- Stay by Estrella
(Maybe! stay for people)

6. What is your motto?
- Lucky by Jason Mraz & Colbie Cailat(yeah yeah yeah)7. What do your friends think of you?
- hot and cold by Katy Perry

8. What do you think of your parents?
- Bleedin…

The Trouble with Love is....

Oooh oooh, ooooh yeah, mmmm...

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

Now I was once a fool, it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder, but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

(The trouble with) The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can…